And You Will Never Know...

[onelifeonelove]

And you will never know
Never Know
The pain the plagues my soul
And you will never see
Never See
The darkness haunting me
And you will never care
Never care
Enough to find me there
And you will never be
Never be
Everything I need
And you will never know
Never know
How the story goes

Today was Saturday... just another pointless day. I thought it might be good until I came back home. I'd been at the beach with my friend, collecting shells. I went knee deep in cold water to get the better shells. You see, the better things are in deeper waters. I used a blanket to sit on at the beach. My dad got pissed off at me. Apparently it is the blanket he sleeps with. Excuse me, I didn't know other blankets existed in this house. Again the common phase "you only give a damn about yourself"... came flying out his mouth. My mother sat me down and asked me what was wrong. I cried and told her how those words just cut me down. I didn't apologize. I won't let him see the tears in my eyes. Screw that.

But tonight I cry myself to sleep again.

And you will never know
the pain i feel within
So deep and cold and cruel
like icy raging wind
And you will never get
how badly the words hurt
"you don't give a damn"
these angry things you blurt

So just leave me be
you cannot come to terms
I am heavy pressed
I can hardly turn
So how do you expect
that I could get a grip
on this life on mine
when I'm tired of this shit