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today was kind of shitty cause I missed him alot. I dont get it...why can't I stop thinking about this guy?? Im so messed up.. I dont even know anymore. I really just want to move on, but it seems like its impossible. so fucked. I wish he knew how I felt..not that it would do anything..so I guess there really is no point. That fact that he likes another girl doesnt help either..seeing them together yesterday, hurt me so much..some of my friends know, but I think im gonna stop talking about it with them now...they're probably getting sick of hearing all my bullshit.. Mick is, thats for sure..we got in a huge fight yesterday..i went to bed in tears again..I feel like I dont have the energy to do this anymore..no one really gets me..not even myself. I wish I could go back to the summer, and erase everything that happened..I guess that's when it all began. Life is fucked right now..I just want everything to be normal for me.. I feel so abnormal..like an outcast.. I never feel like I fit in..I dont know..