the good ain't so good right now
I've been feeling so down these last couple of days.
I don't know whats wrong with me but i want it to go away..This depressed feeling is fucking with me. I don't want to be alone anymore. I want someone in my life to whom to share my thoughts with and feelings. My freinds kinda do that but they have there own problems it doesnt seem fair to make them comfort me. A girlfreind would be awesome because her problems would be mine so i wouldnt feel bad about asking her to comfort me. My logic is fucked up sometimes. I don't know what to feel anymore.
My psychologist tells me that i have to cry more..but thats hard for me..and not because i'm some mancho guy that thinks crying is for pussies cuz im not. I would love to let out some tears it would do me fucking good but i cant...sucks man.
I dont know what to do to feel normal again not to feel anxious, depressed, and sickly all the time.
All i've been doing is sleeping and watching t.v...since when do i watch t.v and sleep? I need better freinds the ones i have now are good but more than half arent there for me and the other half would be there for me except there usually too busy which there own things which is all good i understnad i just need new people. I need a new body. I need to start over. I need a new life. I need a new memory and erase the one i have now.
Im confused right now. Now that i'm doing things right for myself and taking care of myself is when all these problems come out. But..when i was doing shitty things to my body like drugs, no sleep, no excerise, and cigarettes i had no worries and everything was good. Well fuck that. Still no going to go back to any of that but it's still shitty how that turned out.
w/e
I don't know whats wrong with me but i want it to go away..This depressed feeling is fucking with me. I don't want to be alone anymore. I want someone in my life to whom to share my thoughts with and feelings. My freinds kinda do that but they have there own problems it doesnt seem fair to make them comfort me. A girlfreind would be awesome because her problems would be mine so i wouldnt feel bad about asking her to comfort me. My logic is fucked up sometimes. I don't know what to feel anymore.
My psychologist tells me that i have to cry more..but thats hard for me..and not because i'm some mancho guy that thinks crying is for pussies cuz im not. I would love to let out some tears it would do me fucking good but i cant...sucks man.
I dont know what to do to feel normal again not to feel anxious, depressed, and sickly all the time.
All i've been doing is sleeping and watching t.v...since when do i watch t.v and sleep? I need better freinds the ones i have now are good but more than half arent there for me and the other half would be there for me except there usually too busy which there own things which is all good i understnad i just need new people. I need a new body. I need to start over. I need a new life. I need a new memory and erase the one i have now.
Im confused right now. Now that i'm doing things right for myself and taking care of myself is when all these problems come out. But..when i was doing shitty things to my body like drugs, no sleep, no excerise, and cigarettes i had no worries and everything was good. Well fuck that. Still no going to go back to any of that but it's still shitty how that turned out.
w/e