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[onegirlarmyx]

So last night in my I-hate-everyone-who-has-ever-hurt-me-ever, kind of rage, I told Joey that it is over, forever. He goes back and forth between me and Kristin every other minute, and he always ends up choosing her. Me and Kristin both don't want to be with him, but the only difference between her and I is that she lies and tells him otherwise. Excuse me for being an honest person. So, I decided that if I keep letting this cycle go on and on, it is only going to hurt me too. Fucking karma. I know deep inside that I do not want to be with him, so why do I need to talk to him as a friend. Yes, we had a good relationship, but it wasn't based on a friendship beforehand. We don't know how to be friends, so it is just not going to work. I know he will be calling me within the next couple of days but i'm not going to answer. It's not a pride thing or whatever, it's just that he needs to get over me and I need to get over the fact that I don't need to have someone there in order for me not to feel lonely. I need to prove that to myself-again.

I'm trying to learn to be upfront with people. I appreciate when someone is upfront with me, even if it does hurt, but at least I know what is going on.

The end.