Tickle Me Elmo is Hotter than You.
So stupid UTAH boy has been giving me grief for the last month. I have tried to avoid him. His "girlfriend" has put all over his and her Myspace pages about how "in love" they are and she can't wait to come to Texas to meet her "new family" at Christmas. Sounds serious right? (Granted this all happened after she met him in UTAH and they hung out for MAYBE 3 wks before his clearance was denied and he was shipped back to Texas.. of course those lies are yet another story)
So why the fuck is he sending me text messages at midnight asking me what I'm up to? I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. Always my mistake. I always hold out for the good in people. I have learned, when given the chance, people will rarely surprise you. They live up to my expectations REPEATEDLY and yet, I continue to give second, third chances.
Today was no different. The text messages from him started with a simple "Hey there, stranger." I should have ignored. I think I am a glutton for punishment. I replied, he replied. This continue on for hours during the day. Until the text reflected on our previous texts when we first met. They were rather risque to say the least. He brings this up. Then says that he has mental images. Blah blah. Then he asks "What do you say we make those texts become real?" *pause* WTF??? I dragged Edwina on a mile walk with me at break today so I could vent about this. Does he really think that I am as dumb as these 22 year olds he messes with? Does he honestly think that I haven't seen him changing his myspace status to "Can't wait for my baby to get here for Xmas"? He is my friend so of course I see that shit. He changed his myspace page to reflect "in a relationship". She has, in essence, peed all over his page with lots of "I LOVE YOU"s. So, why does a 29 year old man think that I am going to say okay? This is a never ending pattern with me. Men dating girls and then come to me for a little fun on the side. Do I just give off that vibe? BLAH.
So, after a couple of hours he sends me another text that says, "So no response?" This time I'm angry. I'm thinking about how I saved ALL of his text messages even during the times that he was "courting" her. I have tons of proof to fuck his world over. I could easily tell my best friend what a piece of shit her cousin is and let her read his recent messages to me. For a few minutes I thought out all the wondrous ways to invoke revenge. But, my heart is golden. I realize I cannot seek justice. It will happen in its own time. I reply to him with "If this was Oct, I would say yes in a second. I know about Lisa. I'm not that kind of girl I'm very sorry if I gave you that impression." Not even a minute later he comes back with "I wasn't serious. I'm not that kind of guy."
The text messages have ceased. I have never wanted to teach someone a lesson like I do now.
Breathe, Katrina, Breathe. People don't really understand that inside this cute, sweet passive girl, there rages a freaking EVIL beast. Trust me, those who have felt my wraith know. Unfortunately, things get out of hand when the BEAST emerges so I tend to keep it tucked far away inside.
Tonight, I can feel her clawing her way out. It's not going to be pretty.
So why the fuck is he sending me text messages at midnight asking me what I'm up to? I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. Always my mistake. I always hold out for the good in people. I have learned, when given the chance, people will rarely surprise you. They live up to my expectations REPEATEDLY and yet, I continue to give second, third chances.
Today was no different. The text messages from him started with a simple "Hey there, stranger." I should have ignored. I think I am a glutton for punishment. I replied, he replied. This continue on for hours during the day. Until the text reflected on our previous texts when we first met. They were rather risque to say the least. He brings this up. Then says that he has mental images. Blah blah. Then he asks "What do you say we make those texts become real?" *pause* WTF??? I dragged Edwina on a mile walk with me at break today so I could vent about this. Does he really think that I am as dumb as these 22 year olds he messes with? Does he honestly think that I haven't seen him changing his myspace status to "Can't wait for my baby to get here for Xmas"? He is my friend so of course I see that shit. He changed his myspace page to reflect "in a relationship". She has, in essence, peed all over his page with lots of "I LOVE YOU"s. So, why does a 29 year old man think that I am going to say okay? This is a never ending pattern with me. Men dating girls and then come to me for a little fun on the side. Do I just give off that vibe? BLAH.
So, after a couple of hours he sends me another text that says, "So no response?" This time I'm angry. I'm thinking about how I saved ALL of his text messages even during the times that he was "courting" her. I have tons of proof to fuck his world over. I could easily tell my best friend what a piece of shit her cousin is and let her read his recent messages to me. For a few minutes I thought out all the wondrous ways to invoke revenge. But, my heart is golden. I realize I cannot seek justice. It will happen in its own time. I reply to him with "If this was Oct, I would say yes in a second. I know about Lisa. I'm not that kind of girl I'm very sorry if I gave you that impression." Not even a minute later he comes back with "I wasn't serious. I'm not that kind of guy."
The text messages have ceased. I have never wanted to teach someone a lesson like I do now.
Breathe, Katrina, Breathe. People don't really understand that inside this cute, sweet passive girl, there rages a freaking EVIL beast. Trust me, those who have felt my wraith know. Unfortunately, things get out of hand when the BEAST emerges so I tend to keep it tucked far away inside.
Tonight, I can feel her clawing her way out. It's not going to be pretty.