Second Thoughts

[soul__less]

Southern France
2084
4.30amThe sun wouldn’t be up for a while yet, but hey, that didn’t mean I couldn’t come home early, spend a bit of time with Lindsey…of course time well that could really mean any number of things and I had a good imagination. Especially where Lindsey was involved

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[sexytarawitch]

Another night, another fight. I didn't want it like this, I just wanted him. I wanted my deadly rattlesnake back, I wanted things how they used to be, the good times. Now it's like I've become second to Angelus again and I don't know if I can take that anymore. I don't want to.

"Fucking hell, Tara. What’d you want me to do, huh? You want me to roll out the fucking red carpet for you every time you walk into a room? Is that the sort of thing you want, ‘cause I’ll do it, you know I will. Doesn’t seem to matter though, nothing I ever do is good enough. Maybe you should just fuck off back to Spike."

I gritted my teeth and glared at him. "Yes, so you can send me another love sick letter begging me to come to you." I spat, moving slowly to him till he was backed against the wall. I roughly drug my nails down his chest, leaving little welts in their wake. "I'm just tired of you treating me less than him, when he's around it's like I don't exist. I want things how they were, when they were good."

Standing on my toes I pressed my face against his neck, kissing his sire bite and running my tongue over it before whispering in his ear. "Things used to be so good baby, I was yours, you were mine and there was never second guessing..." I smirked and rolled my hips against him. "Always did love the way you hurt me...so good."

“Oh dear, trouble in paradise again, is it?”

A growl escaped my throat and I tightened my arms around Lindsey's waist and glared at Angelus. "Fuck off." I was so tired of him and his games, I wish that Lindsey would let go of him already. Then again I guess his pull to Angelus was like mine to Spike...sort of.

[x__lindsey__x]

I couldn’t fucking figure out what she wanted and to be honest it was starting to piss me off. Nothing I did was ever good enough, no matter how much I ignored Angelus it was never enough. Hell, I’d left him for her, spent a year away from him with her and only her but I’d never said it was a permanent arrangement, she seemed to think it should have been though.

Leaving Angelus for good was never part of the deal, and yeah, I’d written her that letter, but there’d never been anything binding…god, I just couldn’t leave the lawyer behind, could I?

"I'm just tired of you treating me less than him, when he's around it's like I don't exist. I want things how they were, when they were good….Things used to be so good baby, I was yours, you were mine and there was never second guessing... Always did love the way you hurt me...so good."

I smiled as she kissed my neck.

“I still can, babe,” I said quietly, running my hands down her back to cup her buttocks.

”Oh dear, trouble in Paradise again, is it?”

Fucking hell, he always turned up at the worst possible time, didn’t he?

”Fuck off” Tara spat, pulling me too her and I realized I really didn’t want to be hung onto like I was her god damn rag doll.

I pulled away from her and took a step towards Angelus. He smelt good, like sweet blood and my cum from that fuck we’d shared in the alley earlier in the night. “Maybe you should just…”

[soul__less]

Fuck off”

Ooh, she was in snit.

“Maybe you should just…”

“What?” I said peering at Lindsey. “Fuck off?”

I sauntered over to the bed, taking in the rumpled sheets and the smell of it. One thing I liked about Lindsey; he was fucking insatiable.

“Would you like me to fuck off Lindsey?” I asked, turning to him. “Is that what you really want? It didn’t seem like it earlier tonight, in the alley…I mean some of the words were similar, but…” I grinned at him and sat down on the bed, leaning back and running my eyes over him. “…the sentiment seemed a lot different.”

I looked at Tara. She looked like she was ready to dust me if I made even a movement, she’d do it right now if she thought she could, I could smell it. Maybe one day she’d try. I have to say, I think I’d like that.

“Now, tell me, what’s wrong?” I asked. “What’s big, bad Lindsey done to upset you this time?”

[sexytarawitch]

He pulled away...He fucking pulled away.

I can't deal with this, it's more than I bargained for. I thought when we left that it was for good, the two of us would go off far away from both of our male problems and start a new life. Guess I was wrong, again.

Leaning against the wall I watched the two of them as they taunted each other in that twisted way they do. It used to be hot to watch, the two of them batting at each other back and forth like cat and mouse.

“Now, tell me, what’s wrong? What’s big, bad Lindsey done to upset you this time?”

My eyes narrowed and I glared at him. "That's the problem Angelus, since he's been back he hasn't been big or bad." I said simply, knowing that they had a quick fuck in the alley before when we were hunting. Seriously, like they had to hide it? I knew, I wasn't stupid. I hate that Lindsey sneaks around and comes back smelling like him, makes me want to chain him and mark him for mine all over again.

I turned and looked at Lindsey, moving over to him and moving my hands over his chest. "Being around you has turned him into a rattlesnake without the bite..." That fire in his eyes, god I loved it.

[x__lindsey__x]

I glared at her. Fuck she pissed me off, but I couldn’t help feel that familiar feeling of affection wash over me. She was fucking wicked, and insatiable…but I still didn’t know what she wanted from me. Actually, no I did, she wanted me to leave Angelus. I suppose she thought me staying with him was the soft option, but she didn’t realise that it was what I wanted.

I could tell her but knowing Tara she’d fuck off back to Spike and I couldn’t have that. Yeah, I wanted Angelus, but I wanted her too.

“I’m no different than I was, Tara, you just need to learn how to share,” I said, grabbing her hair softly and pulling back her head so she was looking at me.

“It’s the way it is now.”

[soul__less]

I reclined on the bed, watching and listening as she voiced her sad little concerns and Lindsey tried to placate her. Fucking hell, why didn’t he just tell her to like it or lump it? So she wanted Lindsey to be a big bad wolf, did she? Looks like someone was missing their Sire.

"Being around you has turned him into a rattlesnake without the bite..."

“Maybe it’s just that he got a little tired of eating the same thing, day in day out,” I looked her up and down and smirked. “Crazy I know, but there’s no accounting for taste. I mean take you and Spike for instance…”

I left it there. I didn’t need to say anything more; just the mention of his name was all I needed to utter see that she’d been thinking about him. Maybe she wasn’t ready to go back to him yet, but she would be…she was the type of girl who needed her Sire, I could tell, even if he was a soft piece of shit.

Which while we were on the subject, was probably the reason she was such a bitch. She needed to be put in her place. Maybe I should take it upon myself, I mean, she was my great grandchilde after all.

“…he’s obviously seen the benefits of a more varied diet. I was surprised how long it took him really, but then, he always was slow to catch on.”

This was fun. I was suddenly glad I’d come home early.

[sexytarawitch]

“I’m no different than I was, Tara, you just need to learn how to share...It’s the way it is now.”

I smirked and moaned up at him. "Guess I get that from my Sire, I never did like to share." I leaned in and nipped at his bottom lip. "You liked it when I was selfish with you my sweet boy, kept you for mine till I turned you...had you all to myself..." He tightened his grip in my hair and I moaned, gasping and looking up at him as he moved his hand over my chest and sides.

“Maybe it’s just that he got a little tired of eating the same thing, day in day out...Crazy I know, but there’s no accounting for taste. I mean take you and Spike for instance…he’s obviously seen the benefits of a more varied diet. I was surprised how long it took him really, but then, he always was slow to catch on.”

Angelus was getting on my nerves, his nitpicking and trying to get me to bicker with him was getting tiresome. Maybe I should take what Spike said to heart and stake Angelus in his sleep. But that would make Lindsey upset and I don't...wait, maybe getting rid of Angelus would bring back that fire that I missed in my boy.

Ignoring Angelus I squirmed and panted with lust against Lindsey's body, the feel of him so close is so intense. Makes me miss how things were before. "What is that naughty look in your eyes my darling boy?" I whisper, flicking my tongue over his bottom lip. "Tell your Sire your wicked plans..."

[x__lindsey__x]

I ran my hands over her body, squeezing her tits as she carried on, telling how disappointed she was in me. No matter how mean she got, though, I just couldn’t fucking get enough of her, and she fucking knew it, that’s why she stayed on, I suppose, even when she wasn’t getting exactly what she wanted. She knew she’d always get me to do what she wanted - I grabbed her ass and pulled her against me, glancing over at Angelus who was watching us from the bed - well, within reason I suppose. Whatever she said, though, whatever she promised there was no way I was leaving Angelus…I’d waiting too fucking long to have him.

I suppose I could compromise though, give Tara what she wanted…and I knew what she wanted because it was always the same; attention…and pain

"What is that naughty look in your eyes my darling boy? Tell your Sire your wicked plans..."

“No plans, babe,” I said, grabbing her hips and walking her back towards where Angelus was lounged on the bed. “Just a few ideas, but you’re right about one thing.” I leaned forward and kissed her neck, glancing at Angelus as I did. He smirked back. He knew, he always fucking knew. “They are wicked.”

[soul__less]

Fucking boring as batshit, or at least it would be if I wasn’t getting a nice little peep show. Lindsey couldn’t keep his hands off the fucking girl, and that was his biggest problem; he was addicted to her.

Tilting my head I watched as they talked.

It wasn’t as if she wouldn’t be fun to get addicted to, she was a sweet plum… although I had to admit one thing, and that was that Spike had the right idea taking her when she was human…I bet she was so fucking adorable…bet she whimpered and quivered, gave him the whole virgin thing he likes so much…

Yeah, problem was though, she wasn’t adorable anymore, she was just a bitch that needed to be put in her place. Now, I considered myself a very sharing type of person, and I would gladly share the boy with her, but she wasn’t having Lindsey all to herself, no fucking way. She tried it once, dragged him off into the night and to another city but it didn’t work, he came back to me, begging and apologising…didn’t take much more than a look to get him on his hands and knees. No, she’d have to learn about the way things were now, I’d let it go for too long. I think Lindsey was having a similar idea, too.

That or he wanted his cock sucked, you never could tell with Lindsey.

“No plans, babe…Just a few ideas, but you’re right about one thing…They are wicked.”

I smirked at him, inviting him to do whatever it was he was thinking and he did, shoving her backwards right into my lap. She fell against my and I grabbed her around the waist, pulling her back and reaching up to cup her tit.

“You don’t like me, do you Tara?” I asked, whispering the words against her cheek and watching as Lindsey began to strip off his clothes. “I can tell. Doesn’t matter, though, I’ll still have you wet and begging for my cock by the end of the night.”

[sexytarawitch]

"They are wicked."

He whispers against my neck before I find myself pushed down onto Angelus' lap, his arms wrapped tightly around me and kept me to him. A soft moan escaped my lips when I felt his hand over my breast, squeezing and pulling my flesh when he moved his face against mine.

“You don’t like me, do you Tara? I can tell. Doesn’t matter, though, I’ll still have you wet and begging for my cock by the end of the night.”

As he spoke I didn't turn my head, I kept my gaze on Lindsey and watch as my wicked boy started to strip. It didn't take long for him to stand there naked in front of me, his cock hard and begging for my touch. "Never liked you Angelus." I whispered, attempting to get up and out of Angelus' lap and move to Lindsey.

"You're so full of yourself Grandpa." I smirked, trying to pull away from Angelus to go to Lindsey but he wouldn't let me, he kept me tightly against him, leaving me to stare and want.

[soul__less]

“Uh uh,” I said softly, feeling my cock harden from the feeling of her squirming around on my lap, and the sight of my boy naked in front of me, his hard cock throbbing, aching to be touched. Tara seemed to notice the same thing, and tried to pull away from my grasp. Problem was, I wasn’t having that.

“You need to learn one or two things about where your place is here,” I told her, slipping hand underneath her shirt to caress her bare skin. “Spike’s spoilt you, he does that with his women, I know, but you seem to think you can have anything you want. Anyone you want.”

She tried to pull forward again, but I held on tight, caressing her breast and pinching her nipple. She wasn’t as fucking strong as she thought she was.

“But the truth is you can’t. Can’t even have him,” I told her, nodding at Lindsey. “He’s not your’s…I know you thought he was but, sorry to point this out and all, but he came running back to me. Didn’t you Lindsey?”

[x__lindsey__x]

“Yeah, fuck knows why though,” I said, getting a bit pissed at the way he was treating Tara. He always had to be a bastard, turn a game into a battle of wills…I did like the way she looked on his lap though…the way they were both looking at me. I grinned at them both and slid a hand down over my stomach to play with my cock.

I saw Angelus’ eyes follow my hand and Tara’s eyes dilate with lust. She was always so transparent, unlike Angelus who hid it much better. I could still tell I’d gotten his attention though, could smell it.

“I’m sick of this shit,” I said to both of them. “The both of you, acting like I’m some fucking possession…at each other’s throats all the time.” I stopped stroking my dick and took a step forward.

“It’s time you learned to get the fuck on with each other,” I threatened. “Angelus let Tara up,” I ordered and he quirked an eyebrow at me, I only smirked back at him.

“She can’t get her clothes off and suck you cock if you’ve got her in a vice grip, now can she?”

She was going to fucking kill me for this

[sexytarawitch]

I rolled my eyes at Angelus and felt his fingers dig into me and keeping me to him. I wanted to claw his eyes out for his words but I kept my mouth shut...till he spoke again.

“But the truth is you can’t. Can’t even have him...He’s not your’s…I know you thought he was but, sorry to point this out and all, but he came running back to me. Didn’t you Lindsey?”

A growl escaped my throat and I turned to glare at him. "See, he is mine. I made him. If you forget you were the one that didn't have the balls to turn him when they were after him. I did." I smirked and turned back to Lindsey, feeling my stomach clench at the look on his face showed he wasn't amused.

“I’m sick of this shit...The both of you, acting like I’m some fucking possession…at each other’s throats all the time.”

I sighed - not that I needed to - and looked up at him. "We're selfish; we both want you. That should make you hot baby." I watched as he stroked himself, teasing me and I knew that I was transparent when it came to him, but I didn't care. He knew me better than anyone so he'd know anyway. Not to mention how could I not want him.

“It’s time you learned to get the fuck on with each other...Angelus let Tara up...She can’t get her clothes off and suck your cock if you’ve got her in a vice grip, now can she?”

I laughed and pulled away from Angelus, glancing over my shoulder as I slipped my 'good girl' dress off and stood before Lindsey naked. "I know where his cock's been." I smirked letting him know that I knew they fucked while we were out hunting. I moved towards him; the look in my eyes clear that I wasn't going down on Angelus after their little trist.

Moving towards Lindsey I smirked and ran my fingers over his sire bite, pressing softly and reminding him that he was branded as mine. I moved my hand down his body and wrapped my fingers around his cock, leaning up and kissing him softly before falling to my knees and taking him into my mouth.

[soul__less]

I watched the little spectacle with a smile on my face. As if she’d ever suck my cock without being forced into it, Lindsey was so fucking naive sometimes…either that or he wanted to watch while I put her in her place, which of course had it’s appeal…

She took him into her mouth, obviously not giving a shit about what Lindsey asked her to do and while it was fun to watch, I’d had just about enough of it all. I was sick of coming home to a pissing match every night, and I was sure sick of sharing Lindsey with his whiney, demanding Sire.

Leaning forward, I grabbed a bunch of her think, blonde hair and threw her easily across the room. Her shoulder struck the wall with a loud thud, some plaster coming away from the wall as she fell to the ground, naked.

“Funny, it sounded like our Lindsey asked you to do something pretty specific,” I said walking over to her, undoing my pants as I walked. I glanced at Lindsey who was watching the scene in fascination, his cock grasped in his fist. So he did want to see me hurt his girl, did he? Well I’d be happy to oblige, she’d pissed me off.

“Now I think you need to do it,” I said, reaching down and grabbing her hair again, dragging her to her knees. “Don’t you want to make your boy happy?”

[sexytarawitch]

The feel of my boy in my mouth always made me hot and I sucked him into my mouth - swallowing down on him - and moaning against him, loving the feeling of him shuddering over me.

Next thing I know Angelus' hand is on me and I find myself flown across the room, my shoulder slamming hard into the wall and a crack echoed in the room.

“Funny, it sounded like our Lindsey asked you to do something pretty specific,”

Our Lindsey? Oh he was trying everything to get me pissed off, sadly it was working. I glared up at him and smirked. "I wouldn't suck your little cock with the Slayer's mouth." I dug at him, my eyes narrowing as I held my ground.

“Now I think you need to do it...Don’t you want to make your boy happy?”

"I think my boy was very happy a moment ago. See, there is this thing that I do with my tongue and throat that only makes him shudder. Made him come instantly once." I smirked even though he had a fist full of my hair. "I do love the taste of his come on my tongue, swallowing it..." I paused and licked my bottom lip. "Then again you wouldn't know about that, would you..."

[x__lindsey__x]

“Fuck Angelus…” I began, starting to object but not really knowing how to finish. Truth was I wanted him to keep going. It wasn’t like Tara couldn’t hold her own… and yeah, when I was human I was compelled to protect her, be sweet and gentle with her but I was a demon now, and now…now watching as Angelus played his rough games with her I couldn’t help but get harder just watching. Maybe it was the demon in me, getting a thrill by watching my Sire get put in her place.

He wouldn’t hurt her any more than she could take though, I’d make sure of it. Jesus, why’d she always make me feel as if I had a conscience.

“Why don’t you be a good girl and show him that thing, honey,” I said hotly, stroking my cock and watching as Angelus gripped her hair tightly and she stared at me with a look of pure rage on her face. I knew then I was going to be punished for his, good and hard, just the way she liked it. Didn’t mean we couldn’t have fun right now, though.