Apr 11, 2007 16:31
just for this moment
as long as youre mine!
ive lost all resistance..
this shit gets me so amped.
I woke up every two hours last night. 7am i finally decided it was time to get the fuck up. I heard billy leave and proceeded to hack up some juicey chunks.
disgusting? you know it.
so light headed and feeling like vomit i got on the train and came to my parents to be taken care of. went to the doctor and now i have augmentin to take. horse sized. ive gotten so used to swallowing pills and giving blood. i remember when i couldnt swallow anything bigger than an M&M. and now needles dont even phase me.
one questions haunts and hurts... too much too much to mention, was i really seeking good? or just seeking attention? is that all good deeds are when looked at with an ice cold eye..
if thats all good deeds are, maybe thats the reason whhhyyyy..
NO GOOD DEED GOES UNPUNISHEDDDD!
let all oz be agreed
im wicked thru and thru.. and if i do not suceed, fiero saving you, i promise no good deeeed will i attempt to do againnnn, ever agaiiinnnn!
im skipping lines all over the place.
anyway.. im missing passion in my life, and sadly i think spring break just made that worse. lack of structure kills. now that im supposed to be back in class im too sick to move.
i never mentioned how amazing world/inferno was. amazing. sometimes i think that ive outgrown dancing or going nuts at shows. this is not true. i went wild. and i have bruises all over my feet from being stepped on.
it really was great. if i dont start acting again then im thinking maybe its time to take up an instrument. skin flute? juuussttt kidding. i want more work, i want more money.
i look and feel like crap.
when will it be summer? when will we picnic? school is almost over. im a little scared i wont get thru it. im pretty far behind. so long as i maintain some sanity i think ill be ok. may 19th aint so far away. i cant wait till i get to see some familiar faces.
shower time.