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things are starting to go pretty shittily in my head again during the past several days. the temptation to do something really fucking stupid and self-destructive (not kill myself though... and not drinking and not using) is so strong because i have been really neglecting my need to communicate how i fucking feel. i'm really really bad at asking for help. but definitely, i'm not feeling stable right now, nor am i feeling very much like dealing with it in a mature manner. 3 different things, all relatively significant, have been affecting me, and i haven't talked about any of them to anyone. i suppose that's what i get, huh? i don't care to get into the details here... i have therapy tomorrow...
i fell asleep and missed charlie's vet appointment this afternoon. i assumed i would wake up when the maintenance guy came back to my place, as i told him i would only be home until 3. well, he never came back, so i didn't wake up until 5:30ish. all of my other planned commitments went okay today. saw my psychiatrist this morning, saw my grandma tonight with alice... that went better than i expected, and we're planning on visiting her every week now.
we have a hole in the ceiling in our bathroom. to make a long story short... the guy upstairs needs new sealant around his bathtub. his water was dripping into our bathroom whenever he took a shower. that's gonna be a several day project for the maintenance guy, which pisses me off because i just feel like spending several days in bed. see now why i have charlie? :P
i fell asleep and missed charlie's vet appointment this afternoon. i assumed i would wake up when the maintenance guy came back to my place, as i told him i would only be home until 3. well, he never came back, so i didn't wake up until 5:30ish. all of my other planned commitments went okay today. saw my psychiatrist this morning, saw my grandma tonight with alice... that went better than i expected, and we're planning on visiting her every week now.
we have a hole in the ceiling in our bathroom. to make a long story short... the guy upstairs needs new sealant around his bathtub. his water was dripping into our bathroom whenever he took a shower. that's gonna be a several day project for the maintenance guy, which pisses me off because i just feel like spending several days in bed. see now why i have charlie? :P