"all you ever wanted"
Life in the burbs is surprisingly good. Granted, it's not the city, but I was kind of expecting to be mildly miserable and mostly I'm just well-rested and content with an occasional bout of boredom. My trips to the the city are frequent enough to keep me from going crazy but scattered enough to make every ascent to Jackson like a sweet homecoming. Oh Chicago, you really did save me.
I went to some shows.
-Kanye West, Lupe Fiasco, Rhianna, NERD @ United Center on May 23rd: With Cassandra, furthest possible seats, multiple altercations in the stands, Kanye's ego is incredible but he's kind of amazing.
-Panic at the Disco, Motion City Soundtrack, The Hush Sound, Phantom Planet @ Congress on May 24th: With Mark and his friends, pushed up to 2nd row on Ryan's side by the end of Phantom Planet's set, Motion City stole the show, saw Alex on stage working for the sound crew, marveled at how pretty Ross is, Panic are kind of boring live or maybe I'm just over being pushed around by 14 year olds. I vote for an 18 and over date on the next tour.
-Death Cab for Cutie, Rogue Wave @ Millennium Park on June 3rd: With Mark, Ag was there-dramarama*, cold and damp, the show would have been better if the weather hadn't been so bad and if everyone would have just sat down and relaxed.
I saw Missy's apartment. We got some sweet thrift-store scores and nerdy hang time in Bridgeport. Urkel puzzles anyone? I stayed with Anthony and Phil for a couple days. They're amazing and adorable. It's been really nice re-connecting with some friends that I had been neglecting. Last night there was an impromptu trip downtown to hang out with Missy, Jon, and L-Train at the Buck. Great talks with better friends and we even got to play a little practical joke. I had a really interesting conversation with Jon about life and how Chicago has been this magical thing for both of us. I like that kid more every time we hang out.
*I've still got emails that my fingers itch to send every time I get reminded of it. There are a million shitty things that I could say but they're not going to change anything and they're only going to make me feel better if they make him feel worse (a sure sign of a bad idea). It's obvious that he couldn't care less about me so I doubt that he's gonna tear himself up over it. It's clear that my friendship was only good enough when there wasn't anything better to do. Mostly now I just feel stupid for actually believing all the lies that he fed me about it being so important to him. Whatever. I'm only sorry that I wasted so much time with him in the first place because I'm now beginning to realize all of the things that I was missing out on. At least he's happy now, and why wouldn't he be? He's got people that he can get wasted and sleep with, all he ever wanted in a friendship!
Tomorrow after class I'm meeting up with Meg! Lunch and hangs and hugs will be had.
Summer To Do List:
Let it happen.
I went to some shows.
-Kanye West, Lupe Fiasco, Rhianna, NERD @ United Center on May 23rd: With Cassandra, furthest possible seats, multiple altercations in the stands, Kanye's ego is incredible but he's kind of amazing.
-Panic at the Disco, Motion City Soundtrack, The Hush Sound, Phantom Planet @ Congress on May 24th: With Mark and his friends, pushed up to 2nd row on Ryan's side by the end of Phantom Planet's set, Motion City stole the show, saw Alex on stage working for the sound crew, marveled at how pretty Ross is, Panic are kind of boring live or maybe I'm just over being pushed around by 14 year olds. I vote for an 18 and over date on the next tour.
-Death Cab for Cutie, Rogue Wave @ Millennium Park on June 3rd: With Mark, Ag was there-dramarama*, cold and damp, the show would have been better if the weather hadn't been so bad and if everyone would have just sat down and relaxed.
I saw Missy's apartment. We got some sweet thrift-store scores and nerdy hang time in Bridgeport. Urkel puzzles anyone? I stayed with Anthony and Phil for a couple days. They're amazing and adorable. It's been really nice re-connecting with some friends that I had been neglecting. Last night there was an impromptu trip downtown to hang out with Missy, Jon, and L-Train at the Buck. Great talks with better friends and we even got to play a little practical joke. I had a really interesting conversation with Jon about life and how Chicago has been this magical thing for both of us. I like that kid more every time we hang out.
*I've still got emails that my fingers itch to send every time I get reminded of it. There are a million shitty things that I could say but they're not going to change anything and they're only going to make me feel better if they make him feel worse (a sure sign of a bad idea). It's obvious that he couldn't care less about me so I doubt that he's gonna tear himself up over it. It's clear that my friendship was only good enough when there wasn't anything better to do. Mostly now I just feel stupid for actually believing all the lies that he fed me about it being so important to him. Whatever. I'm only sorry that I wasted so much time with him in the first place because I'm now beginning to realize all of the things that I was missing out on. At least he's happy now, and why wouldn't he be? He's got people that he can get wasted and sleep with, all he ever wanted in a friendship!
Tomorrow after class I'm meeting up with Meg! Lunch and hangs and hugs will be had.
Summer To Do List:
Let it happen.