Will You Dance To This Beat?
"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live."- Dumbledore
Sometimes I forget that... and get lost. Sometimes I forget which part is reality. I am a dreamer... always have been... I have a wonderful imagination... and have had on to a fair amount of child-like tendencies... especially trust. I have a pretty thick wall around my heart... around my feelings... since we all know my treachours past with relationships and men. It takes something to break it down... even just a little. But once it comes down... I am an eyes wide open child, full of faith. Sometimes I think I have too much faith and hope in people. Cause let's face it. People suck, and people have the power to hurt you, and let you down. And other than two people who aren't directly related to me... only two people have never let me down. They are there at 2am when you need someone to talk to. They are my best friends.
I think I should give up on relationships. Honestly... anytime I think "hey maybe I'm safe, maybe this could be something good" and when I finally allow that wall come down just enough to feel... that's when things crash and burn in my hands. And all I can do is gracefully try and pick up whatever pieces scattered... and promise myself that I will not allow myself to hope again... because hopes are dashed... yes life is all about adventure... but sometimes it hurts too.
Dream little girl... never lose sight of your dreams... but don't have high hopes... especially if they are in the hands of someone who could hurt you... and never forget to open your eyes, and live... dream on little girl.
So here's to the walls... protecting me... back up again... I'm so done looking. I'm not cut out for this.
"I've got more win, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me"
I <3 Panic! At The Disco.