Time For a Change
Wow. Hey, if anyone still reads these.
It's definitely been a while. But I think my life is on track for the time being and I'm totally ready to share what's been going on. Well, first things first... SENIOR YEAR!!! I can't believe we've made it this far. Our last year. And now we slowly wait as our relationships begin to deteriorate. I don't say that in a way to make anyone upset. It just seems as though... a lot of the people I know are already being accepted into colleges and soon they'll be gone. Maybe I just say that to hide the fact that I haven't even begun applying yet. My grades are unacceptable... although they are passing. I'm so ashamed that I've let people run my life. It's definitely about time that I start doing things for myself.
Second off... New boyfriend:-)His name is Shea. He's 19 years old and a graduate from Nashua North. We met over a year ago when I started working at HomeGoods. It's funny because when I started working there, I was dating Sean. I even got him a job there and Shea was the one who trained Sean! So it is a bit awkward that they know each other. But I've left the memory of Sean in the past. Only time I truly think of him is when I realize how wonderful Shea is. The things he does, the things he says to me... I would have never heard from Sean. Now I don't mean to compare because even though Sean and I ended badly... I do love him. I'm not going to change my feelings towards the boy just because we went our seperate ways. But I do love Shea. He makes me so happy. He treats me well... he even puts up with my ridiculous actions... my bipolar causes me to say things I don't mean.. and Shea always says, "Babe, i know you do mean that... so lets just say i love you and move on."
It's definitely been a while. But I think my life is on track for the time being and I'm totally ready to share what's been going on. Well, first things first... SENIOR YEAR!!! I can't believe we've made it this far. Our last year. And now we slowly wait as our relationships begin to deteriorate. I don't say that in a way to make anyone upset. It just seems as though... a lot of the people I know are already being accepted into colleges and soon they'll be gone. Maybe I just say that to hide the fact that I haven't even begun applying yet. My grades are unacceptable... although they are passing. I'm so ashamed that I've let people run my life. It's definitely about time that I start doing things for myself.
Second off... New boyfriend:-)His name is Shea. He's 19 years old and a graduate from Nashua North. We met over a year ago when I started working at HomeGoods. It's funny because when I started working there, I was dating Sean. I even got him a job there and Shea was the one who trained Sean! So it is a bit awkward that they know each other. But I've left the memory of Sean in the past. Only time I truly think of him is when I realize how wonderful Shea is. The things he does, the things he says to me... I would have never heard from Sean. Now I don't mean to compare because even though Sean and I ended badly... I do love him. I'm not going to change my feelings towards the boy just because we went our seperate ways. But I do love Shea. He makes me so happy. He treats me well... he even puts up with my ridiculous actions... my bipolar causes me to say things I don't mean.. and Shea always says, "Babe, i know you do mean that... so lets just say i love you and move on."