Day 1
It's 3 weeks before my "summer vacation" begins. 2 weeks of performances done and 3 to go. I have the next 3 days off to get my life together, pay bill, clean my apartment, laundry, figure out my summer plans etc... and get on a good regimine. My family was visiting to see our performances so I got pretty off track. Ugh... I love seeing my family but it stresses me out to eat out all the time especially when I'm performing.
A lot of changes have been going on in my life. My boyfriend of 5 yrs and I are taking "a break" of some sort. we are long distance and his mom is going through ovarian cancer. it has put so much stress on both of our lives and relationship. in the past year it has been impossible to see each other because he is taking care of her full time, and his own life. He was planning on moving to SF with me last year when she got sick. I have the utmost respect for him and what he is doing for his mother, but it has been really hard to maintain a relationship. Most of our relationship has been long distance since I am a dancer and go where my work it. For 2 of the years I was touring the US with Broadway shows. Now that I'm in a ballet company I've finally been in one place for 2 years..... and feel further away from him than ever. It seems like we are in "survival mode" and are more best friends that love each other. I mean the passion is not there bc we are always dealing with such intense situations. Sex.... non existent... and I'm a very sexual person. I feel so frustrated and so does he. Anyway, I'm wondering if this is all why I have had such a hard time getting on track with my body and menstrual cycle.
I started strength training with a trainer at the gym to lower my body fat... on top of a full rehearsal day at ballet. All that happened was I got a lot more buff... which I was afraid of. Now I just feel fat and buff,....not a good combo for a ballerina.
Trying to look forward to the summer and make some plans to take a trip somewhere... in need of an adventure. But I don't want to go anywhere fat.
I also started eating my meals backward which is a little weird. Having a chicken breast and spinich salad for breakfast, carrots and homemade hummos for lunch, and a small romaine salad for dinner. Think I'm going to cut out dairy. I mean I have nf cottage cheese and greek yogurt but i feel like it needs to go. so, lean meat, fish and veggies is the plan... once again i guess. egg whites too and water.
I have the next 3 days to myself without ballet or performing so I'm going to just get this 28 day plan started on the right page and get some good cardio in. I am motivated and am going to reach my goal.
A lot of changes have been going on in my life. My boyfriend of 5 yrs and I are taking "a break" of some sort. we are long distance and his mom is going through ovarian cancer. it has put so much stress on both of our lives and relationship. in the past year it has been impossible to see each other because he is taking care of her full time, and his own life. He was planning on moving to SF with me last year when she got sick. I have the utmost respect for him and what he is doing for his mother, but it has been really hard to maintain a relationship. Most of our relationship has been long distance since I am a dancer and go where my work it. For 2 of the years I was touring the US with Broadway shows. Now that I'm in a ballet company I've finally been in one place for 2 years..... and feel further away from him than ever. It seems like we are in "survival mode" and are more best friends that love each other. I mean the passion is not there bc we are always dealing with such intense situations. Sex.... non existent... and I'm a very sexual person. I feel so frustrated and so does he. Anyway, I'm wondering if this is all why I have had such a hard time getting on track with my body and menstrual cycle.
I started strength training with a trainer at the gym to lower my body fat... on top of a full rehearsal day at ballet. All that happened was I got a lot more buff... which I was afraid of. Now I just feel fat and buff,....not a good combo for a ballerina.
Trying to look forward to the summer and make some plans to take a trip somewhere... in need of an adventure. But I don't want to go anywhere fat.
I also started eating my meals backward which is a little weird. Having a chicken breast and spinich salad for breakfast, carrots and homemade hummos for lunch, and a small romaine salad for dinner. Think I'm going to cut out dairy. I mean I have nf cottage cheese and greek yogurt but i feel like it needs to go. so, lean meat, fish and veggies is the plan... once again i guess. egg whites too and water.
I have the next 3 days to myself without ballet or performing so I'm going to just get this 28 day plan started on the right page and get some good cardio in. I am motivated and am going to reach my goal.