Starting over everyday.
Two days ago I called my friend who is a top trainer. Over the years I've watched him sculpt his body into exactly what he wants it to be. He's the scientific type that does everything according to how the body specifically works. I finally called and asked for his professional opinion about my body. We live miles apart but he knows my body pretty well and work ethic. So I asked him about body fat loss and how I could achieve it the proper way. He recommended this book which I bought and couldn't put down till it was done. It turns out When I told him I average 800cals/day plus full day of ballet and added gym workouts, her was horrified. He said no wonder you can't get those last couple pounds off. I've slowed my metabolism and obviously this is why my menstrual cycle is never on time. So through strength training and a new clean diet is how I plan to change up my regimen. I've needed new routines to do to let my muscles work harder to achieve results. Right now I'm just getting better and more efficient at the routines I always do, which doesn't do anything to move me toward losing fat in the places I want. Anyway, it's nerve racking because I have been on a basically no carb diet for forever it seems and I'm starting to incorporate whole grains only. Last night I had quinoa and bulgar wheat mixed into my grilled chicken salad. I have to say I feel like my brain works better, and I'm happier not telling myself I can't have something. I'm focusing on protein the most. eggwhite for breakfast, cottage cheese and berries and raw nuts for snacks, and fish tofu or chicken and salad for dinner. I am also going to get some whey protein for after my workouts to replenish the glycogen in the body.
In exactly 2 weeks I have a photoshoot and a new VERY famous choreographer is coming to work with us on an Juri Killian ballet. I want to be my leanest, strongest, and most confident from now on. No more depression, insecure, putting myself down, and hiding that I feel has been going on for too long. Being back in the ballet world did it to me, because before that I was balanced and focussed. My boyfriend and I are on a "break". Not really, but it's our way of taking the time for ourselves to get ourselves where we want to be in life for each other. We are long distance which is hard, but we aren't trying to see anyone else. It's not like that. Life has been stressful for both of us for a long time. His mother has ovarian cancer and her is the only one taking care of her. It's a lot, but we are determined to get through the storm on top. So this is why I'm going to feed myself nourishing food for energy so I can train better and succeed as an athlete and ballet dancer. I know this will help me prevent injuries too that could cut a career short. I'm also limiting my alcohol intake at this point to jump start my program. Plus I feel I have so much to catch up on in my life, no to mention save money.
It's raining out. I'm going to clean up, gear up, hit the gym, and run all my errands in the rain. I need a haircut soon too. Maybe as a treat after the next 2 weeks.
In exactly 2 weeks I have a photoshoot and a new VERY famous choreographer is coming to work with us on an Juri Killian ballet. I want to be my leanest, strongest, and most confident from now on. No more depression, insecure, putting myself down, and hiding that I feel has been going on for too long. Being back in the ballet world did it to me, because before that I was balanced and focussed. My boyfriend and I are on a "break". Not really, but it's our way of taking the time for ourselves to get ourselves where we want to be in life for each other. We are long distance which is hard, but we aren't trying to see anyone else. It's not like that. Life has been stressful for both of us for a long time. His mother has ovarian cancer and her is the only one taking care of her. It's a lot, but we are determined to get through the storm on top. So this is why I'm going to feed myself nourishing food for energy so I can train better and succeed as an athlete and ballet dancer. I know this will help me prevent injuries too that could cut a career short. I'm also limiting my alcohol intake at this point to jump start my program. Plus I feel I have so much to catch up on in my life, no to mention save money.
It's raining out. I'm going to clean up, gear up, hit the gym, and run all my errands in the rain. I need a haircut soon too. Maybe as a treat after the next 2 weeks.