chirstmas trees and transitional decorations.
so it's the end of the semester.
what a long one.
what an odd one.
i have gone through so many transitions in the past year.
1. moving back home after living on and off since 16 (my parents owe me a room).
2. being single and doing almost every thing in a very solitary fashion.
3. see #2. working through feelings of being lonely, being alone and comming to terms with that.
4. being ok with all of the above. im still working on this one.
i guess what i have learned is, (and this isn't to sound jaded or negative)that you really
can only depend on yourself.
Life is working full-time/schooling it full-time and doing it without the company of many people.
I never thought being only 21 would drastically weed out who is and who isn't somebody i consider
a friend/somebody to invest the time and energy into a friendship.
And, im finding that group to be few and far. that makes me sad.
but, it is a very real aspect of growing older, i guess.
i have to say though, the 21 idealism in me wishes things could be the same.
this will be the fist holiday in almost 4 years where i will be spending
my holiday alone/dateless etc. a bit dis-heartening but certainly a reality.
anyway,
to all that i know and has played a supportive role in my life in the past few months
despite my utter insanity, have a good holiday.
i will have starting tomorrow. wed. 14th- jan. 17th off from school and only have work.
anyone who would like my company, surely let me know.
-signing off.
ry.
what a long one.
what an odd one.
i have gone through so many transitions in the past year.
1. moving back home after living on and off since 16 (my parents owe me a room).
2. being single and doing almost every thing in a very solitary fashion.
3. see #2. working through feelings of being lonely, being alone and comming to terms with that.
4. being ok with all of the above. im still working on this one.
i guess what i have learned is, (and this isn't to sound jaded or negative)that you really
can only depend on yourself.
Life is working full-time/schooling it full-time and doing it without the company of many people.
I never thought being only 21 would drastically weed out who is and who isn't somebody i consider
a friend/somebody to invest the time and energy into a friendship.
And, im finding that group to be few and far. that makes me sad.
but, it is a very real aspect of growing older, i guess.
i have to say though, the 21 idealism in me wishes things could be the same.
this will be the fist holiday in almost 4 years where i will be spending
my holiday alone/dateless etc. a bit dis-heartening but certainly a reality.
anyway,
to all that i know and has played a supportive role in my life in the past few months
despite my utter insanity, have a good holiday.
i will have starting tomorrow. wed. 14th- jan. 17th off from school and only have work.
anyone who would like my company, surely let me know.
-signing off.
ry.