Signs of Aggression and Pride
So there is an all day workshop going on tomorrow for workers with a potential for management and my boss has been asked to send one rep from TS and one from CR to go train for team lead position.
Guess who will be answering phones tomorrow.
FUCK that. Fuck it straight into the ground with a hot iron rod.
The reasoning? I sometimes have trouble managing perceptions. The girl they are sending apparently does not.
I am told that I may be ready for that level of responcibility in 6 to 12 months and that I should continue building those skills.
No.
Fuck you.
Fuck your need for a Yes-Man who is going to dress everything you say up with a pretty bow and try to make us eat the shit with a smile. The entire fucking company does it and I DON'T.
And that's why I will never be chosen. Because I challenge him on shit he puts out there and don't play stupid to the fucking games the entire company pulls.
Enough bullshitting. He wants a figurehead to work his PR and needs a rep to keep the team above water. I will not be the fucking workhorse.Not when it is my fucking perception that is the reason I will not be promoted.
What I have done in the past 6 months matter DICK ALL because of the tiny miniscule things I have forgotten since you took the one person I had help with splitting my workload with and moved her to a different team. And you wonder why things are tough. YOU CANNOT COMPARE TWO DIFFERENT POSITIONS WHEN ONE IS SHITTASTIC AND ONE IT NOT.
But this is all pointless venting. Tonight I put the finishing touches on my resume and prepare to launch myself back into the world.
Very rarely do I allow myself to show pride; I hate it and I hate how it makes people act. But fuck you if you refuse to let me move because I won't shit talk for you and mewed at you once-upon-a-time.
I'm replacable, remember? So fucking replace me in the new year.