Hello, All

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I apologise for the delay in my writing/posting; I've been quite busy with school, prom, finals, and graduation. It's been pretty intense. I've been through a lot emotionally these past couple of weeks, and I just don't quite know how to continue from here. My mother is being difficult again, which isn't unusual; it's just frustrating. Extremely goddamn frustrating. She insists on making everything about her, no matter what the fuck the occasion is. Prom? I couldn't come to her graduation because I was getting ready for it. I was being selfish because I couldn't afford to waste three or more hours of my pre-prom time. That shit pissed me off hardcore. I told her several times that I couldn't fucking make it, and at the time it wasn't a problem. But lo and behold when it comes right down to it she pretends like I never fucking told her a goddamn thing ever. EVER. I could've dealt with that if it weren't for those stupid-ass Facebook comments. I posted a status about looking forward to prom and looking pretty. You'd think that's no big deal. But then you'd be one wrong-ass motherfucker. She had to start shit on there about me not attending her graduation. My younger sister came on to defend me, and my older sister and Bible-thumping aunt had to get on there to tell me that we were ungrateful children and that it was apparent we didn't love our mother because we were selfish. My aunt actually told me that she wasn't going to speak to my sister or me again because we "only thought of ourselves" and were undeserving, apparently, of her wise words. Fuck her. I honestly didn't care. She can kiss my gay atheist ass. Now, graduation wasn't as bad, but it still pissed me off. I almost didn't invite my mom and older sister due to the bullshit they pulled via Facebook, but I decided to be better than them and invite them anyway. Even though they didn't deserve a goddamn thing from me. They were polite when it was just me before graduation, but after graduation when the rest of my family showed up, including my dad's parents, they both got fucking rude as shit, and it pissed me off. Neither of them directly said anything to me, but apparently Mom felt the need to harass my younger sister about not talking to her. There was a fucking reason why she didn't wanna talk to Mom, and I don't blame her one goddamn bit. I wouldn't have talked to her if I could've avoided it.

I was surprised that graduation went as good as it did; I'm happy it did, though. Obviously. Who the fuck wants a messed up graduation? NOT ME. That Friday was pretty intense for me. I'm not going into detail about it, simply because it's nobody's business but mine. I'll just say that I confessed to some pretty major stuff and I'm really quite surprised that things have turned out the way they have. It sucked and I didn't like it one damn bit, but I'll move on and be okay. I promise. :) I really would love to relay every single detail of what happened, mostly so I can try to understand what happened a little more, but the images/memories will have to stay in my head and be overanalysed there, I suppose. I don't want to betray anyone's trust, here. :P

There's my little rant for the evening, I suppose. I may write more tomorrow, but I'm not sure. I finally got Lord Of The Rings Online (LOTRO) downloaded, so I may spend all fucking day tomorrow playing it. Hopefully I get to go over to Koda's tomorrow. I <3 that kid. Anywho, I guess I'll talk to you all later!!

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