Further contemplation
I never really mean to offend anyone, I guess it sorta just happens? Life is a jumble, and I really would like to figure everything out. I have no idea what's going on, what's not, why, and with whom! I look around, at probably the most stressful time of the semester, and I see so much anger, frustration, disappointment, and confusion. What causes
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Why thank you, didn't know you cared!
None of us started this, no matter how much you try to convince yourself otherwise.
Au contraire, I repeatedly attempted to talk to multiple people after Podunk and I argued over something that involved no one else but me and him. EVERYONE flocked to his side and ostracized me in activities and decisions from this point on. Even those who had claimed to be unbiased and "distancing themselves from both parties" in an attempt to let things blow over were at his house, from what I have heard. No one went out of their way to talk to me. The jury was out as soon as you heard his side of the story, and there was no chance I could be seen as in the positive on this argument. HOW COULD I BE WHEN EVERYONE AUTOMATICALLY TOOK HIS STORY WITH HIS BIASED INPUT AND SPIN!? I needed to talk to somebody, and there was ONE person, Katy. Katy was the only one of all of you to actually let me vent and talk through what was going on. She was there for play-by-play as you assholes took everything I trusted and most of what I enjoyed here in Tuscaloosa and turned it upside down. As the information began to come out more, I finally began to see that this was not a result of Podunk's dispute with me only. You all ("the circle") had been doing, saying, and laughing about things concerning me and my activites for a few months. Rumors of my "looming outside the door...listening to conversations," allegations that you all would gather around the computer and laugh as I IMed either person living in the apartment, other things as well-do you honestly think that I had no life and had nothing better to do with my time than hang outside of apartment doors in hopes of hearing you all say something juicy and enlightening? Give me a break. From the time around Christmas when everyone was slamming Danielle behind her back, you all probably noticed a milder tone in my discussion of her. It's because after I got over that night where she royally and inexplicably slaughtered me in Magic, I began to listen to the rest of you (this may be more aimed toward Scott, Podunk, and Jennifer) slamming her nonstop. That's when I realized....one day this could be me, kicked out of "the group" and being slammed, unaware of what's going on. Oh, yes, I did talk my piece about Danielle in my time, but she knows what I have said. I don't have secrets. All she had to do was ask. She's a friend.
Drew and Chris I definitely thought better of and held in higher esteem. I never thought you all would engage in that form of back-stabbing. Especially Chris, the diplomat and mediator. Never saw that coming. I always thought you too had the mutual respect to tell me things to my face. That's what burns to this day...
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