Last Day for Fun
The doctor told Renee to take a few days off, so tomorrow she will be returning to work. We have had a lot of fun the past few days - at least I have. We talked a bit and tried to take care of her. Don't think I did too well, but she's getting a little better. She bit her tongue during the accident and it looks like it has healed pretty well. Her right knee hurts a bit still, so I am going to get some oil and rub her legs for her. I guess she is doing very good; healing a lot faster than expected, but wouldn't that be a good thing? Tomorrow I drive her to work, hope we are okay.
Anyway, my book has been on the back burner the past few days. I am wanting to start writing again tomorrow, picking up where I left off. I think I need some help. Can't decide what to do with my main character's childhood. Thought about cutting it out completely, but then we don't really get to know him and, hopefully, care about him. Maybe I'll start thinking about what to do tomorrow and start writing again next Monday. Thinking about the story before writing it helps tremendously; I don't have to go back a thousand times to insert something new that I find interesting. I think this story might be one of the most interesting ones yet. At least out of the ones I've written.
Been thinking about writing a bit of another story I had all plotted out; the one that is a series several "episodes" long. It is not chronological, but it'll be a book, so you can read it that way. I was thinking about writing the series to keep my mind creative and to continue working. I feel like my brain is slower than five years ago, before everything with Hildur happened. I think that was really stressful and it somehow regressed me. I tried to see a shrink about it, but he was of no help.
I still think about some of the stuff from back then, wondering if it is the cause of my apathy toward everything. I know that I have problems, I want to fix them, yet I still do nothing about it. I guess the real question is, "Do I really want to fix my problems?" I don't know. I try to live each day doing something I feel guided to do. I love to write. The power of creating a world and destroying it, only to create again fascinates me. I love the ability of art, not that anything I do is art. I don't want to be famous; I just want to provide for my family. I don't care about becoming the next Stephen King or John Grisham or whoever; I just want to write and let my stories be heard, and if people like what they read and it puts money in my pocket, then I will be truly blessed. I just hope the thoughts in my head can come out clearly as I interpret what I see in my mind's eye to the paper. The story is somewhat childish right now, kids making fun of each other; but, as Halo (the main character of the fantasy novel I'm working on) becomes older, the story will begin to gradually get darker and become more somber. I wonder - sometimes - if I should bring parts of the first book I wrote into this one by changing a few small ideas and "stealing" from my own work. I haven't decided yet, because I've been thinking about making it a series of books, not just stories, that explain this "race" of beings and what will happen to them and how, as I see it, the world cycles through the ages.
It might make more sense to describe it. So...there are four stages of the earth, each stage is several millenia long. After the fourth stage, the earth begins a new cycle. Each cycle of four stages is one day of the gods'. Not to ruin anything, for those few that actually care to read my trash, but as I see it now Halo will become one of the gods (hence the name). However, the gods aren't "Gods", they are all created and have to wait for their time to be the godhead. Sheesh, maybe I shouldn't have tried to explain it, it just sounds more confusing. So, I'll leave it at that. Anyway, been working on it; probably need to work on thinking about the flow of the story. I have a lot of "key points" that I want to put in, just don't know how to get from point to point. Should think about it more.
Well, getting tired and need to spend some time with Renee.
Good-bye my dearest droogs.
Anyway, my book has been on the back burner the past few days. I am wanting to start writing again tomorrow, picking up where I left off. I think I need some help. Can't decide what to do with my main character's childhood. Thought about cutting it out completely, but then we don't really get to know him and, hopefully, care about him. Maybe I'll start thinking about what to do tomorrow and start writing again next Monday. Thinking about the story before writing it helps tremendously; I don't have to go back a thousand times to insert something new that I find interesting. I think this story might be one of the most interesting ones yet. At least out of the ones I've written.
Been thinking about writing a bit of another story I had all plotted out; the one that is a series several "episodes" long. It is not chronological, but it'll be a book, so you can read it that way. I was thinking about writing the series to keep my mind creative and to continue working. I feel like my brain is slower than five years ago, before everything with Hildur happened. I think that was really stressful and it somehow regressed me. I tried to see a shrink about it, but he was of no help.
I still think about some of the stuff from back then, wondering if it is the cause of my apathy toward everything. I know that I have problems, I want to fix them, yet I still do nothing about it. I guess the real question is, "Do I really want to fix my problems?" I don't know. I try to live each day doing something I feel guided to do. I love to write. The power of creating a world and destroying it, only to create again fascinates me. I love the ability of art, not that anything I do is art. I don't want to be famous; I just want to provide for my family. I don't care about becoming the next Stephen King or John Grisham or whoever; I just want to write and let my stories be heard, and if people like what they read and it puts money in my pocket, then I will be truly blessed. I just hope the thoughts in my head can come out clearly as I interpret what I see in my mind's eye to the paper. The story is somewhat childish right now, kids making fun of each other; but, as Halo (the main character of the fantasy novel I'm working on) becomes older, the story will begin to gradually get darker and become more somber. I wonder - sometimes - if I should bring parts of the first book I wrote into this one by changing a few small ideas and "stealing" from my own work. I haven't decided yet, because I've been thinking about making it a series of books, not just stories, that explain this "race" of beings and what will happen to them and how, as I see it, the world cycles through the ages.
It might make more sense to describe it. So...there are four stages of the earth, each stage is several millenia long. After the fourth stage, the earth begins a new cycle. Each cycle of four stages is one day of the gods'. Not to ruin anything, for those few that actually care to read my trash, but as I see it now Halo will become one of the gods (hence the name). However, the gods aren't "Gods", they are all created and have to wait for their time to be the godhead. Sheesh, maybe I shouldn't have tried to explain it, it just sounds more confusing. So, I'll leave it at that. Anyway, been working on it; probably need to work on thinking about the flow of the story. I have a lot of "key points" that I want to put in, just don't know how to get from point to point. Should think about it more.
Well, getting tired and need to spend some time with Renee.
Good-bye my dearest droogs.