i almost posted this to my myspace profile.. oh my gaowd

[olive]

I write songs about my life. I live in my studio, i work in a restaurant, i pay more than i can afford for rent and i make too little, i'm a debt slave, i don't have any real plans for the future, and i spend most of my free time watching internet t.v. My job is boring, my home life is boring, i feel misrepresented by my government in so many ways, but i vote anyway. i'm socially awkward and passive aggressive, i care a great deal about the people in my life, but too much about what they think of me, i've been in love twice, but i am pretty sure i fucked it up, either way, that fucked me up, and at the end of the day, i just want to be a better person but i'm 28 now and it's starting to seem like this is just who i am and at best I'm a mediocre person so I'd better learn to deal with it. I write songs about all this, this stupid anxiety and i feel guilty because it's pathetic.. maybe i should have watched the secret, maybe i should just start doing the things i should and not moping around because nothing ever changes, maybe i should just realize that nobody gives a shit about my problems, because i could be different if i just applied myself a little, and maybe i shouldn't just give myself a pat on the back and say better luck next time every fucking day..

ugh..