Blah.
And I was having such a good day. Funny how that works. My mascara is officially ruined.
I don't know. I'm just kind of sad. Here lately I've been feeling a certain way. I can't describe this feeling. It's on the border of disappointment. I wonder, though, if I'm the only one feeling this way. I surely surely hope so. You know, sometimes you do all you can and even then it's not enough it seems. I think it's at these times where you just have to take a step back. Unrequitted is a word that cuts like a knife, not to quote Bryan Adams or anything. It's so hard for me to talk about though cause I don't know if I want to talk about it. I don't know if it's just a phase. I really don't know if I could even find the words in order to talk about it. I'd prolly end up just being a blubbering mess like I am most of the time when it comes to this stuff. I find it hard to talk about because when the time comes I just get quiet and feel like crying or avoiding and I forget what I was gonna say or I just can't muster up the gumption to say it. This is mainly why I still write in this thing, because it's one of the only places where I can organize my thoughts and say what I need to say. I do know though that people tend to overlook the little things that mean so much sometimes like a little note to say hi or stopping by unexpectedly or surprises or verbal compliments. Most of the time the little things that people do are a reflection of the things they find important and would like in return. Sometimes the little things are the things that allow you to really get to know a person. To me, the little things matter more that the big things. But now I've just talked myself into a hole and I don't know what else to say or how I got here in the first place.
Moving on.
Monday through Thursdays are really busy. All day busy. No breaks busy. I like it though cause it flies by. It's such a short week it seems....every week.
I looked really cute today. Too bad I didn't really make much of it. I could have but you know....
We went to see a comedian tonight, A.D. Miles. He was soooo funny. I laughed so much and that was nice. I'm glad he was funny and not lame like the last guy, who just so happens to be his roomate. haha. He was good. I'm glad I went.
The first football game is this weekend and I'm a little excited about it. Not really as much as everyone else but nontheless I am excited at least somewhat. I can tell you what I'm not excited about though, and that's standing in line for such a long freakin time.
I watched Blades of Glory last night with some friends. It was funny in that absolutely ridiculous sort of way. lol.....oh those boys. The best part was the clothes they all wore. Hideous!
Today is Chad's birthday. I've called and left messages but haven't goten a response....maybe I'll try again later.
I actually think I'm gonna get in bed early tonight because I've gone and worn myself out.
Feel free to leave comments in order to make me feel loved.
Kara
I don't know. I'm just kind of sad. Here lately I've been feeling a certain way. I can't describe this feeling. It's on the border of disappointment. I wonder, though, if I'm the only one feeling this way. I surely surely hope so. You know, sometimes you do all you can and even then it's not enough it seems. I think it's at these times where you just have to take a step back. Unrequitted is a word that cuts like a knife, not to quote Bryan Adams or anything. It's so hard for me to talk about though cause I don't know if I want to talk about it. I don't know if it's just a phase. I really don't know if I could even find the words in order to talk about it. I'd prolly end up just being a blubbering mess like I am most of the time when it comes to this stuff. I find it hard to talk about because when the time comes I just get quiet and feel like crying or avoiding and I forget what I was gonna say or I just can't muster up the gumption to say it. This is mainly why I still write in this thing, because it's one of the only places where I can organize my thoughts and say what I need to say. I do know though that people tend to overlook the little things that mean so much sometimes like a little note to say hi or stopping by unexpectedly or surprises or verbal compliments. Most of the time the little things that people do are a reflection of the things they find important and would like in return. Sometimes the little things are the things that allow you to really get to know a person. To me, the little things matter more that the big things. But now I've just talked myself into a hole and I don't know what else to say or how I got here in the first place.
Moving on.
Monday through Thursdays are really busy. All day busy. No breaks busy. I like it though cause it flies by. It's such a short week it seems....every week.
I looked really cute today. Too bad I didn't really make much of it. I could have but you know....
We went to see a comedian tonight, A.D. Miles. He was soooo funny. I laughed so much and that was nice. I'm glad he was funny and not lame like the last guy, who just so happens to be his roomate. haha. He was good. I'm glad I went.
The first football game is this weekend and I'm a little excited about it. Not really as much as everyone else but nontheless I am excited at least somewhat. I can tell you what I'm not excited about though, and that's standing in line for such a long freakin time.
I watched Blades of Glory last night with some friends. It was funny in that absolutely ridiculous sort of way. lol.....oh those boys. The best part was the clothes they all wore. Hideous!
Today is Chad's birthday. I've called and left messages but haven't goten a response....maybe I'll try again later.
I actually think I'm gonna get in bed early tonight because I've gone and worn myself out.
Feel free to leave comments in order to make me feel loved.
Kara