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I think the real reason that this summer doesn't actually feel like summer is because in the back of my mind I know it's time for me to grow up. It's time for me to start taking care of myself and go through with this big change I've been thinking about, get a job, and start living a life. Everyone says 18 isn't a magic number but I'd have to say that it's going to be my magic number. Things will improve, I promise.
On another note, it's all going to be fake. It's going to be fake and it's going to make me feel like I'm human, for once. So after three years of talking about fake people and how pathetic they are to search for fake things to fill a void, I will become one. I'm just testing the waters, for now, I suppose, and if it makes me feel good: fuck you for your shit talking. I'm allowed to change my mind. I'm allowed to change. And in a few years I'll be fucking broke because of school and surgery and home expenses and necessities, but maybe I'll be alive and broke. Who am I kidding? I'll probably be in debt the rest of my life because it keeps playing a heavy role in my happiness.
I'm just letting you know. It's only vague if you don't ask questions.
And let the shit talking begin !
On another note, it's all going to be fake. It's going to be fake and it's going to make me feel like I'm human, for once. So after three years of talking about fake people and how pathetic they are to search for fake things to fill a void, I will become one. I'm just testing the waters, for now, I suppose, and if it makes me feel good: fuck you for your shit talking. I'm allowed to change my mind. I'm allowed to change. And in a few years I'll be fucking broke because of school and surgery and home expenses and necessities, but maybe I'll be alive and broke. Who am I kidding? I'll probably be in debt the rest of my life because it keeps playing a heavy role in my happiness.
I'm just letting you know. It's only vague if you don't ask questions.
And let the shit talking begin !