English.
So, don't ask me why but i am going to write in english today, i think it's just sort of a nostalgic feeling that grabbed me, btw.
I am so tired, it seems that no matter how much time i've slept it's never enough, and i am always yawning, it just makes me feel worse. I have loads of dark marks under my eyes, my skin is awful, and i just don't know what to do. I wish i could sleep forever, even though i don't think that it would help.
I have made five paper friends this past few days, and i love them, i would have made more, but my print machine is kind of broken and just print blue, white and black so, it didn't left me many options.
Anyway, tomorrow i've got to go to school, and when i come back home i've got to study, a lot. My final tests begin in a week, and i've got to make at least six points in each test to pass. I am kind of confident and i really don't know why, cause my year was so bad, and it continues to be, so i don't really think that i will make it.
I have no hopes anymore, no matter what's happening or about what i am talking about, i just haven't got any hopes left, and i try really hard not to expect too much of anything. I've been so hurt that i am just tired of it, but infortunely it continues to go on.
Some times i don't even know myself, i've become such a bitter person. I've built a wall around me, just because i am too scared of getting hurt, and now, no matter what i do i am kind of a monster version of myself, i don't trust anyone, i am always sarcastic, always in a kind of defensive mode and i don't know how i can turn this off anymore.
Oh gosh, i am so tired.
My mother is so excited cause i am always looking for new manual things to do that today she bought loads of fabric for me, and she is always asking me when i am going to sew new plushies cause she wants to do some too, it's kind of funny, really.
Now she is always saying that next year she's going to fill up all my time with activities, cause she don't want me to stay like these anymore. Of course she dosen't know what's going on in my life but i can see her point of view, she just dosen't want to see me so low, so static anymore, and i feel kind of grateful for it, but at the same time i just don't want to go out of my comfort zone anymore, i don't know if i want to meet new people or work, seriously i don't want to do nothing, just sleep, and stop thinking. But, some money it's always welcomed, so, i think i am going to do whatever she wants me to do.
Anyway, my eyes are closing so i think it's time to go to bed.
I am so tired, it seems that no matter how much time i've slept it's never enough, and i am always yawning, it just makes me feel worse. I have loads of dark marks under my eyes, my skin is awful, and i just don't know what to do. I wish i could sleep forever, even though i don't think that it would help.
I have made five paper friends this past few days, and i love them, i would have made more, but my print machine is kind of broken and just print blue, white and black so, it didn't left me many options.
Anyway, tomorrow i've got to go to school, and when i come back home i've got to study, a lot. My final tests begin in a week, and i've got to make at least six points in each test to pass. I am kind of confident and i really don't know why, cause my year was so bad, and it continues to be, so i don't really think that i will make it.
I have no hopes anymore, no matter what's happening or about what i am talking about, i just haven't got any hopes left, and i try really hard not to expect too much of anything. I've been so hurt that i am just tired of it, but infortunely it continues to go on.
Some times i don't even know myself, i've become such a bitter person. I've built a wall around me, just because i am too scared of getting hurt, and now, no matter what i do i am kind of a monster version of myself, i don't trust anyone, i am always sarcastic, always in a kind of defensive mode and i don't know how i can turn this off anymore.
Oh gosh, i am so tired.
My mother is so excited cause i am always looking for new manual things to do that today she bought loads of fabric for me, and she is always asking me when i am going to sew new plushies cause she wants to do some too, it's kind of funny, really.
Now she is always saying that next year she's going to fill up all my time with activities, cause she don't want me to stay like these anymore. Of course she dosen't know what's going on in my life but i can see her point of view, she just dosen't want to see me so low, so static anymore, and i feel kind of grateful for it, but at the same time i just don't want to go out of my comfort zone anymore, i don't know if i want to meet new people or work, seriously i don't want to do nothing, just sleep, and stop thinking. But, some money it's always welcomed, so, i think i am going to do whatever she wants me to do.
Anyway, my eyes are closing so i think it's time to go to bed.