No work weekend
I have put off all my clients until Tuesday. I should do this every weekend. It's very relaxing, you know, to take a day off work.
Despite a fun bike ride with Tara and the Canucks winning and taking the weekend off, I am feeling kind of down today thinking about the friends I no longer have. I can't seem to stop myself from making up stories in my head about Jeff going around slagging me and Johann and making everyone hate us. This may or may not be happening, and I have no evidence either way, but lately I'm struggling with wanting to tell my side to other people. I'm not interested in badmouthing Jeff at all, but I fear a group of people who sit around smugly and roll their eyes and say, "well Jess and Joh are assholes anyway". And I want to tell them that we are not assholes and there was a misunderstanding. Because I will end up running into these folks again one day I am sure, and I don't want an awkward moment.
I'm sad that we will probably not be invited to Brendan's wedding even though Johann was the first person he told and they even went together to get the ring.
Tonight I did not eat a healthy dinner. But I don't care. Pout pout pout.
Despite a fun bike ride with Tara and the Canucks winning and taking the weekend off, I am feeling kind of down today thinking about the friends I no longer have. I can't seem to stop myself from making up stories in my head about Jeff going around slagging me and Johann and making everyone hate us. This may or may not be happening, and I have no evidence either way, but lately I'm struggling with wanting to tell my side to other people. I'm not interested in badmouthing Jeff at all, but I fear a group of people who sit around smugly and roll their eyes and say, "well Jess and Joh are assholes anyway". And I want to tell them that we are not assholes and there was a misunderstanding. Because I will end up running into these folks again one day I am sure, and I don't want an awkward moment.
I'm sad that we will probably not be invited to Brendan's wedding even though Johann was the first person he told and they even went together to get the ring.
Tonight I did not eat a healthy dinner. But I don't care. Pout pout pout.