update time
Hi, i guess it's been almost two months since my last post, i can update the one person who reads this ;)
basically, we (myself and the EX) are still separated, and at this point i am unsure if we will be getting back together or not. I know now that if we don't i will survive. I have lost 25lbs since the end of April, i don't know if it's due to this or WHAT but i have been hanging out with new people, being all wacky and social. Also keeping in touch with older friends. Getting back in touch with people from the past... and constantly working. Working on bettering myself, that is. I would like to lose another 20 lbs or so. I am doing what i can, walking an hour every day and eating healthy, it's easier than i ever thought it would be.
I met a dude, but i don't know if it's anything, most likely not. Just a brief one time encounter in which nothing really happened anyway. I don't even know him... friend of a friend of a friend, group outing. C'est tout.
I do still love him, my ex that is. EX, what an awful word. But i don't know if now is the right time for us to be together, maybe i really needed this time apart to figure out who i am, have some different experiences in life... build my character a bit. I would love to think that we will be back together at some point in the not too distant future.
If we could have a Ross and Rachel deal, that would be great too.
I don't really know what he wants, i know he loves me. I think he wonders where he fits in in my new and exciting (not that much) life. Well, there's only one way to find out, right?
I just don't know when that would be.
I wait with bated breath. Really, i kind of just need to know if i should expect anything or not. I am still in limbo. I either need to move on or not.
At least now i know that if we never ever get back together, i will be ok. I will miss him, and always have a place in my heart for him, but i won't DIE like i thought i would. That is important to me. I guess that was my real goal these past few months. To be okay with just me. Now i very well might be.
Yay.
That's all.
basically, we (myself and the EX) are still separated, and at this point i am unsure if we will be getting back together or not. I know now that if we don't i will survive. I have lost 25lbs since the end of April, i don't know if it's due to this or WHAT but i have been hanging out with new people, being all wacky and social. Also keeping in touch with older friends. Getting back in touch with people from the past... and constantly working. Working on bettering myself, that is. I would like to lose another 20 lbs or so. I am doing what i can, walking an hour every day and eating healthy, it's easier than i ever thought it would be.
I met a dude, but i don't know if it's anything, most likely not. Just a brief one time encounter in which nothing really happened anyway. I don't even know him... friend of a friend of a friend, group outing. C'est tout.
I do still love him, my ex that is. EX, what an awful word. But i don't know if now is the right time for us to be together, maybe i really needed this time apart to figure out who i am, have some different experiences in life... build my character a bit. I would love to think that we will be back together at some point in the not too distant future.
If we could have a Ross and Rachel deal, that would be great too.
I don't really know what he wants, i know he loves me. I think he wonders where he fits in in my new and exciting (not that much) life. Well, there's only one way to find out, right?
I just don't know when that would be.
I wait with bated breath. Really, i kind of just need to know if i should expect anything or not. I am still in limbo. I either need to move on or not.
At least now i know that if we never ever get back together, i will be ok. I will miss him, and always have a place in my heart for him, but i won't DIE like i thought i would. That is important to me. I guess that was my real goal these past few months. To be okay with just me. Now i very well might be.
Yay.
That's all.