stuff and things that arent really important
school starts on thursday, and im shaking with excitement! if i fuck it up this time, i prove to myself and the rest of the world that i really am a hopeless pile of shit. if i cant do it this time, i give up.
i made peace with mitch and alex. please, dont get your hopes up. im not leaving the window open enough to let them make me feel like crap again. things arent the same, and they probably never will be, but the tension is gone. anthony disagrees with me, and i can COMPLETELY understand him. if he were in my shoes, he would have never let it mend. he would have just beaten the fuck out of them and left it at that. im different. if they lived across town, i wouldnt give a fuck. the simple fact that they live next door drives me nuts, and i figure that its better to live in peace. the last thing my darling honey pot had to say on the matter was, "dont come crying to me when they fuck you over." i dont plan on letting them get to me, im not giving them the chance. if i let down my defenses and by some chance they take advantage of that, well... i deserve it.
i made peace with mitch and alex. please, dont get your hopes up. im not leaving the window open enough to let them make me feel like crap again. things arent the same, and they probably never will be, but the tension is gone. anthony disagrees with me, and i can COMPLETELY understand him. if he were in my shoes, he would have never let it mend. he would have just beaten the fuck out of them and left it at that. im different. if they lived across town, i wouldnt give a fuck. the simple fact that they live next door drives me nuts, and i figure that its better to live in peace. the last thing my darling honey pot had to say on the matter was, "dont come crying to me when they fuck you over." i dont plan on letting them get to me, im not giving them the chance. if i let down my defenses and by some chance they take advantage of that, well... i deserve it.