fuck your milk and cookies.
Huge blizzard swept over mass yesterday. In the matter of 6 hours we got 10 inches. i got let outta work early but ended up having to wait almost two hours in the snow for my damn bus. I swear I had frostbite on my toes.
Mat and I, well we aren't anything at all anymore. And I knew it wouldnt be long. We have been dindling down now for about a year and fianlly the battle has ended. I'm sort of relieved i guess. Because i knew he wanted out a while back. He doesn't deserve me. We really weren't meant for each other. the funny thing is i haven't really been sulking all day today.
I did end up calling the outpatient service again. So i go back for daily group therapy on the 20th. I need to be reavaluated though. that also means telling my boss that i can't work for 10 days. I'm sort of nervous about telling her. Cause its not a good time for anyone to be out of work. With it being the busy holiday season.
I'm not doing christmas at all this year that means i am not buying anyone gifts. I'm not in any sort of spirit . Empty and broken. meh. stupid cycle is starting again. Least I know i can get help before i act on any thoughts and take it to far.
I wish i could love myself the way I am.
goodnight
Mat and I, well we aren't anything at all anymore. And I knew it wouldnt be long. We have been dindling down now for about a year and fianlly the battle has ended. I'm sort of relieved i guess. Because i knew he wanted out a while back. He doesn't deserve me. We really weren't meant for each other. the funny thing is i haven't really been sulking all day today.
I did end up calling the outpatient service again. So i go back for daily group therapy on the 20th. I need to be reavaluated though. that also means telling my boss that i can't work for 10 days. I'm sort of nervous about telling her. Cause its not a good time for anyone to be out of work. With it being the busy holiday season.
I'm not doing christmas at all this year that means i am not buying anyone gifts. I'm not in any sort of spirit . Empty and broken. meh. stupid cycle is starting again. Least I know i can get help before i act on any thoughts and take it to far.
I wish i could love myself the way I am.
goodnight