Weird moment for me in the park parking lot today
I met Yumi to work out at a park to swim and do weights this afternoon after work. I still stink at free-style swimming, but somehow I hope that I can figure out a way to improve.
On the way out to my car, I was putting my towel on my car seat since I was still wet. Then I heard someone yell, "Hey!". I turn around, and it was one of the men who were swimming there at the pool as well. He was older (like in his 50s at least) and balding but in good shape. He then said to me, "I wanted to tell you that you are a pretty woman." I was caught off guard, and just said in surprise back, "Well, thank you." He then went on to say how his children went to the same school as me (he saw my college sticker on my car) and asked my major. I told him briefly about myself, and we separated soon after that.
I will admit that statements like that catch me off guard. I don't really believe myself to be attractive or pretty. I still see my body as still the mostly same masculine shell it has always had. I am very down on my looks a lot of the time. It was a little nice here a compliment like that, even though I thought it was a bit creepy too because it came from a much older stranger in the parking lot. I wish more people found me more attractive to actually want to date me, especially other girls (trans or cis). The only girl to ever be attracted to me also was interested in the male aspects of my body though too. I wonder if I will ever meet a girl that I like, and she will in turn find me attractive.
I have had a lot of bad experiences growing up with the girls that I ever show interest in are not interested in me that way or already dating someone else. Maybe I will find that someone someday. Someone who would actually want to be with me and want to actually touch me. I wonder what it is like to be touched by someone else who actually cares about you. Bet it is nice...
On the way out to my car, I was putting my towel on my car seat since I was still wet. Then I heard someone yell, "Hey!". I turn around, and it was one of the men who were swimming there at the pool as well. He was older (like in his 50s at least) and balding but in good shape. He then said to me, "I wanted to tell you that you are a pretty woman." I was caught off guard, and just said in surprise back, "Well, thank you." He then went on to say how his children went to the same school as me (he saw my college sticker on my car) and asked my major. I told him briefly about myself, and we separated soon after that.
I will admit that statements like that catch me off guard. I don't really believe myself to be attractive or pretty. I still see my body as still the mostly same masculine shell it has always had. I am very down on my looks a lot of the time. It was a little nice here a compliment like that, even though I thought it was a bit creepy too because it came from a much older stranger in the parking lot. I wish more people found me more attractive to actually want to date me, especially other girls (trans or cis). The only girl to ever be attracted to me also was interested in the male aspects of my body though too. I wonder if I will ever meet a girl that I like, and she will in turn find me attractive.
I have had a lot of bad experiences growing up with the girls that I ever show interest in are not interested in me that way or already dating someone else. Maybe I will find that someone someday. Someone who would actually want to be with me and want to actually touch me. I wonder what it is like to be touched by someone else who actually cares about you. Bet it is nice...