If I want to pass as female, wear feminine clothing or else

Nov 11, 2011 22:59

http://ohka15.livejournal.com/35110.html

This is kind of a continuation of this post. This morning I went through a lot of effort before I went to work in getting completely shaved with my foundation and concealer makeup on. I was wearing my most form fitting scrubs to work. I also took my new feminine jacket to wear too. I was interested in seeing how many times I would be confirmed by someone else in some way as a female while wearing  something more androgynous without a bra.

Well, it was a failure. I did not get "ma'am"ed or anything once, but that was tolerable for the most part and tried not to let it get to me. However, I was perceived specifically as a man.

While at my Thanksgiving potluck lunch for my research group of my department, I was sitting at the large table with many others including my co-worker Jared eating and socializing some. While eating (and not talking at this time mind you), a new woman walked into the room and said to me and Jared while sitting and eating with a bunch of women around us, "O hey, there are 2 other men who work in research too." She went on to briefly introduce herself and say how we are apparently some of the few men in this entire research group of our department.

It just annoys and saddens me to think that even dressed almost as femininely as I could possibly dress without wearing obviously feminine colors or clothing items (since I am not allowed to present as female so for example I would not wear a bra), I am STILL automatically labeled and perceived as a man first without question to people who don't even know me at all. It is like I better dress up in dresses and bras and lipstick in the future if I want to be perceived as a female because if I leave my appearance even a TINY bit androgynous, I will be seen as a man without a second of hesitation by people.

O well. Just yet another example that proves to show how little my body has changed while taking hormones as well.

self confidence, confidence, body issues, clothing, sad, passing, expectations, self esteem

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