The Skirt Nightmare
I had to write about this while it was still somewhat fresh, but I kinda wish I would forget about it and stop haunting me. In time it will fade away from my memory.
I had a torturous nightmare last night.
I remember going to my parents' home and changing clothes there for some reason. I was about to go on some trip with my parents to like the movie theater and a convention of some kind. Well, in my clothes that I had to change into available to me, I did not have anything but a tshirt and a white skirt that went to my lower thighs. I did not think anything of it (as I recall) when I put that skirt on with my t-shirt.
I came out of where I changed wearing that skirt, and my mom immediately started to say things like:
"Why are you wearing that?"
"Just take that off right now."
"Is this a joke?"
"You are a man, take it off."
"Change into shorts right now before we leave."
etc.
I remember grabbing a pair of shorts from a closet to take with me into the car with my parents, but I did not change into them. They did not notice that I did not change clothes. We drove to the movie theater first, we got out and people around me started staring, just completely stopped moving and stared at me in like shock or something. People whispered and pointed at me. I overheard things like, "Is he trying to be a girl?", "I cannot believe he wore that in public.", "Wow, he is an ugly looking girl.", etc. Then my mom and dad noticed that I was still wearing the skirt. They told me to go back to the car and change. I went back to the car to change but I did not yet again for some reason. I had the shorts with me, but I did not change. My parents came back shortly later. They did not notice that I had not changed.
We drove to this large building that had some convention going on. I got out of the car, and people did what they did at the theatre again. The world stood still where ever I went. Just watching me. Some of those stares were not friendly looking either. I felt very scared and uncomfortable. Then my parents noticed again that I still wore that skirt. My mom stomped over to me and pulled me aside privately.
She said to me how that everyone is staring and I am embarrassing myself and them. She then pointed at a mirror (of course there is a mirror available >_>) and said that I am clearly a man, and everyone else sees it too. I was told that I should never wear a skirt around them again and that I had to change right now or be left behind.
I walked back to the car to finally give in and change clothes. Everyone stared at me on the way back to the car. Continuing the pointing, staring, and whispering. I slipped off the skirt and put on the shorts. As soon as I came out from the car wearing the shorts, everyone around went about their business as if nothing happened. My parents greeted me and said that is much better. They said that those clothes suit me better and trying to dress as a girl is a mistake and was "disgusting". They then joked saying how it was pretty funny how weird and ugly I looked in that skirt too. I just remember feeling defeated and so hideous.
Next thing I knew I woke up in my bed due to my alarm. I laid face down in bed realizing that everything that happened was a dream, but I breathed heavy for a bit and was pretty sad too before rolling out of bed to start another day. I was still tired and felt like that night was torture. My brain apparently loves to play cruel jokes on me...
I had a torturous nightmare last night.
I remember going to my parents' home and changing clothes there for some reason. I was about to go on some trip with my parents to like the movie theater and a convention of some kind. Well, in my clothes that I had to change into available to me, I did not have anything but a tshirt and a white skirt that went to my lower thighs. I did not think anything of it (as I recall) when I put that skirt on with my t-shirt.
I came out of where I changed wearing that skirt, and my mom immediately started to say things like:
"Why are you wearing that?"
"Just take that off right now."
"Is this a joke?"
"You are a man, take it off."
"Change into shorts right now before we leave."
etc.
I remember grabbing a pair of shorts from a closet to take with me into the car with my parents, but I did not change into them. They did not notice that I did not change clothes. We drove to the movie theater first, we got out and people around me started staring, just completely stopped moving and stared at me in like shock or something. People whispered and pointed at me. I overheard things like, "Is he trying to be a girl?", "I cannot believe he wore that in public.", "Wow, he is an ugly looking girl.", etc. Then my mom and dad noticed that I was still wearing the skirt. They told me to go back to the car and change. I went back to the car to change but I did not yet again for some reason. I had the shorts with me, but I did not change. My parents came back shortly later. They did not notice that I had not changed.
We drove to this large building that had some convention going on. I got out of the car, and people did what they did at the theatre again. The world stood still where ever I went. Just watching me. Some of those stares were not friendly looking either. I felt very scared and uncomfortable. Then my parents noticed again that I still wore that skirt. My mom stomped over to me and pulled me aside privately.
She said to me how that everyone is staring and I am embarrassing myself and them. She then pointed at a mirror (of course there is a mirror available >_>) and said that I am clearly a man, and everyone else sees it too. I was told that I should never wear a skirt around them again and that I had to change right now or be left behind.
I walked back to the car to finally give in and change clothes. Everyone stared at me on the way back to the car. Continuing the pointing, staring, and whispering. I slipped off the skirt and put on the shorts. As soon as I came out from the car wearing the shorts, everyone around went about their business as if nothing happened. My parents greeted me and said that is much better. They said that those clothes suit me better and trying to dress as a girl is a mistake and was "disgusting". They then joked saying how it was pretty funny how weird and ugly I looked in that skirt too. I just remember feeling defeated and so hideous.
Next thing I knew I woke up in my bed due to my alarm. I laid face down in bed realizing that everything that happened was a dream, but I breathed heavy for a bit and was pretty sad too before rolling out of bed to start another day. I was still tired and felt like that night was torture. My brain apparently loves to play cruel jokes on me...