I'm rather confused with myself. It is summer; which means no more schoolwork, no more dreading going to classes. I figured that would be enough to keep me happy all summer, except it's not. I love my work schedule, the fact that my friends are here, and that I'm going to see Andrew in about another month's time. So I don't know why all of that isn ( Read more... )

Everyone always lets me down.

Why do I get so enraged when I call Andrew and he's hanging out with his friends? I don't understand what makes me so mad at him when I call him and he's laughing or something. I think it's because the only Andrew I get to see is the one that he shows me. I never have to see/hear how he acts with his friends because I'm never there. I swear ( Read more... )

I hate seeming like a 15 year old emo kid, but I really hate how lonely I feel sometimes ( Read more... )

Wow its been quite awhile ( Read more... )

Everything changes. I hate it.

Sooooo we bought Andrew's plane ticket! He gets here in about three weeks.. and.. he's staying with me for a MONTH!! I can't wait! That's twice as long as I thought I was going to get to see him for.

Ugh, it's gonna be a long three weeks..

!!!

Sometimes it just hits me really hard that my other half is 3000 miles away. It makes me achy.

Why can't things just be the way they were last year? Why does life have to go on? Why do people have to move on? Why can't things just stay the same?

Why??

Soooo today I started birth control. I feel a little off and a bit dizzy, which is a lot better than I was expecting.
I spent the most money I've ever spent on jeans today at American Eagle, $50. Shutup, I know I'm as cheap as they come. Also got 2 sweater-type shirts at h&m for a cool $40.

I hate not being told everything I should be told.