all you ever do is ruin everyones life and eat all the steak.
I got an a on my first french test. i like french a lot.
I got offered a new job as a waitress and bartender at buddy's. tiiiight. it's about god damn time this job search pain off.
I made Chris the best, happiest mix tape I have ever made in my life. (with the best cover I may add)
I'm going to see beautiful rebecca hurvits tonight.
so what the fuck is the problem. I don't know. Things really are going super well for me its just so strange to have something missing. And I guess that's just it. Everytime I get so overwhelmed with happiness about something it's immediately followed by this sort of hot flash/ nervous stomach sick feeling. And then I realize...that its just me against the world even if the world is being good to me. it's weird to go it alone now. mmm hmmm. I realized the best way to let myself heal is to distance myself from tim as much as I can for now. and I'm not doing well with that although i'd like to. I tell myself to leave him alone about all the new updates but I just can't help it. I wanted to tell him about my test and my job and blah blah blah...and I'm just gunna have to give it up. I'm still in semi-denial though that this will all be over and he will come home and miss me and all that. I need to buck the fuck up and get real. at least I'll see the ypsi ladies tonight. thats better than boys.
There's a really cute boy who works at neptune and I find myself buying more records than I really need...and he's veeeerry nice and friendly with me...but what the fuck...i wish I could make myself care. But I don't. If this were a year ago I would have been around the block 9 times already. But now I just "sit on the porch" so to soeak...thats ok though. whatev. im off to see becky. goodnight.
by the way. i decided the only movie im ever going to watch for the rest of my life is anchorman.
I got offered a new job as a waitress and bartender at buddy's. tiiiight. it's about god damn time this job search pain off.
I made Chris the best, happiest mix tape I have ever made in my life. (with the best cover I may add)
I'm going to see beautiful rebecca hurvits tonight.
so what the fuck is the problem. I don't know. Things really are going super well for me its just so strange to have something missing. And I guess that's just it. Everytime I get so overwhelmed with happiness about something it's immediately followed by this sort of hot flash/ nervous stomach sick feeling. And then I realize...that its just me against the world even if the world is being good to me. it's weird to go it alone now. mmm hmmm. I realized the best way to let myself heal is to distance myself from tim as much as I can for now. and I'm not doing well with that although i'd like to. I tell myself to leave him alone about all the new updates but I just can't help it. I wanted to tell him about my test and my job and blah blah blah...and I'm just gunna have to give it up. I'm still in semi-denial though that this will all be over and he will come home and miss me and all that. I need to buck the fuck up and get real. at least I'll see the ypsi ladies tonight. thats better than boys.
There's a really cute boy who works at neptune and I find myself buying more records than I really need...and he's veeeerry nice and friendly with me...but what the fuck...i wish I could make myself care. But I don't. If this were a year ago I would have been around the block 9 times already. But now I just "sit on the porch" so to soeak...thats ok though. whatev. im off to see becky. goodnight.
by the way. i decided the only movie im ever going to watch for the rest of my life is anchorman.