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so saturday i went to tim's with diana. i had so much fun. i got really drunk, and texted everybody as usual. i texted paul and somehow we made things between us okay again. i'm glad. needless to say, i'm glad i sucked it up and told him how i felt. because it turns out, it's going to be worth it. i had my math final today, i did okay. i ended up with a B+ in the class. hopefully i can get some sleep tonight, because i have to be up at 7. i have a spanish final 8-10 and i'm ridiculously nervous. pauls supposed to come over after. i don't know which one i'm more nervous about. then at one my grandma is coming up to help me pack. my diana is supposed to come too, but she's pretty sick. i hope she's better this weekend, because we're supposed to go out. i hate when my friends are sick i just want to fix them, lol. i have this project that's due wednesday, and i'm gonna finish it on tuesday. i think i'll drive back up here on wednesday to drop it off. i have a dentist appointment, and then i'm going out to lunch with david. then i have nooothing to do all day. maybe i'll wrap presents, lol. thursday i'm gonna bake christmas cookies with kate, and then i work. friday is my party. i thought it would never come. i don't have to work, so i'm gonna go shopping for snacks for the party. i'm so excited, i invited so many people and i'm really looking forward to it. saturday i'm doing lunch with kimmy, and then going out with my diana that night. unless she's still sick, then i'm gonna make her a sick basket and go visit her. i'm just really glad that i'm coming home. like it'll just be nice to be in wadsworth. that's where my work, my family, and my friends are. i'm really looking forward to christmas, like i cannot wait. i just love everything about it. and new years eve i'm supposed to go out with diana, and then new years day i'm going to PA to see my family. that should be fun. but everything is going pretty well right now. i mean, there are a few things that i wish were better, but you can't win them all. i'm just nervous about a situation i'm getting myself into. i really hope that i'm not going to regret this. i don't want to end up getting hurt, and feeling like i never should've started. but i mean, i've been down this road before, and even though i got hurt, i think this time will be different. i've prepared myself emotionally. like, i've already been hurt, so i'm not expecting anything more than what i know will happen. the other situation i was in has sort of fizzled out, but i'm sort of glad that it. it never would've went anywhere, we were both too busy, and i wasn't as much involved as i should've been. but i'm nervous. i get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it.