Jun 20, 2007 22:24
You've got your to my head
Damn Pop Punk you consume me and my thoughts.
Have you ever really though about the things that you do to someone?
The way you treat them?
The way that action may come back to fuck you over?
Yeah, niether did I.
Until that person re-entered my life. (Not Leslie or Lauren calm down guys haha)
I am talking about a person most of you never met. Someone who really cared for me. Someone who was a great person and i wrote off because i thought she wasnt good enough for me. (yeah i thought that way)
We started talking about about a month ago. I felt bad for what I did to her. Especially because she brought it up within 30 minutes of our conversation.
As I started talking to her more and more I started to notice how cool she was and how nice of a person she was.
She started to tell me about this other boy who fucked her over.
Made her feel special.
Made her mix tapes.
And then just stopped talking to her.
I was like "Fuck"
So, I made her a kickass mix to make her feel better.
It took awhile for me to actually give it to her.
I was developing feelings for her.
So, I gave her this mix in a cute way.
(I made it look like a package. Post Marked it and left it in her mailbox.)
She thanked me, she was so happy about it.
We havent spoken since.
She dosent pick up my calls.
Fuck.
I mean i guess i deserve it. I would understand if she wants some sick twisted payback for the way i led her on.
Karma is a motherfucker.
"I cant so i blame you,
But i wish that i could"
I mean i understand.
Maybe i am just being paranoid and I will get a call this weekend.
But something tells me that is just me being hopeful.
I hope to see Evan this weekend.
So we can party and I can forget this ever happened.