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I guess you can't always run away from the truth.
I guess you can't really hide it much, either.
It's just hard to accept the facts, and look someone in the eye when you damn well know that they're not satisfied with what you have to offer, and with who you are--and that's all your own fault.
I'll have to face the dreaded reality that I have been avoiding for the past three years in a couple weeks, and I'm not ready.
I feel so sick to my stomach. So dizzy and lightheaded.
Adrenaline.
Adrenaline.
a d r e n a l i n e .
Too much is expected of me, and I can't handle the responsibilities and the stress that's guarenteed to come along with it.
I've been so tired of bullshitting.
I've been so tired of acting.
I've been so tired of being someone I'm not.
Don't expect it out of me anymore--
I want to back out of this, but I know I'll hurt feelings--I can't do that.
I guess you can't really hide it much, either.
It's just hard to accept the facts, and look someone in the eye when you damn well know that they're not satisfied with what you have to offer, and with who you are--and that's all your own fault.
I'll have to face the dreaded reality that I have been avoiding for the past three years in a couple weeks, and I'm not ready.
I feel so sick to my stomach. So dizzy and lightheaded.
Adrenaline.
Adrenaline.
a d r e n a l i n e .
Too much is expected of me, and I can't handle the responsibilities and the stress that's guarenteed to come along with it.
I've been so tired of bullshitting.
I've been so tired of acting.
I've been so tired of being someone I'm not.
Don't expect it out of me anymore--
I want to back out of this, but I know I'll hurt feelings--I can't do that.