love to hate u, hate to love you

[oh_baby_oh_baby]

"love to hate u, hate to love you" that is a qoute from maroon5, i love that band. but anyway i have those feelings about this kid. omg he so cute! hes somewhat of a friend of mine. see the only time he talks to me is when im ignoring him! i dont think he realizes that he does it! and i not ignoring him cause im mad or anything, i just dont think he wants to talk to me it odd situation and it bothers me! it make me crazy!

on another note my fathers moving out of his house tomorrow and him and my brother are throwing everything that belongs to me :'( it makes me soo upset i cant stand it.

on top of everything im not going to be going to this school anymore because
A. i dont have a doctor to fill out health form
B. I dont have money to pay for the medingitits shot i got
if i dont get these in by next week im out of here!

i dont want to leave here but theres nothing i can do about it, im really breaking down right now there nothing Fucking left for me to live for... everything in my life has turned out to suck and this just adds to it because if im not here where will i be im gonna be one of those losers that get stuck in a dead end job becuase my oppterunity went out the door.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i need a new life!