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i had a somewhat crappy day yesterday, i went to new york with some friends and it was fun, but later on that night my one friend got pissed at everything. it made me feel really bad. she was complaining how the room looked and such, what i dont under stand is why she take it out on everyone. yea maybe there was a lot of people in her room at that time last night but it doesnt give her a reason to take it out on everyone. i was planing on spending the night in the room im mean after i signed in one of her friends who is mine also, who was sleeping up there. one of her roomates told me and my roomate who was getting ready to leave anyway that it was time to leave. if they made me leave my guest should have came with me that was wrong because i feel slightly used! the whole thing made me soooo upset that i practical cried myself to sleep because My friends are the only thing keeping me here at this school im not doing great im my classes. i have a god damn kidney stone that i just cant pass, and im missing classes because of it. i have no money ever cause i dont have a job, my car insurance payment is next month and i dont have money to pay for it. and on top of it i have two ticket for $45 each to pay. i cant deal with this shit anymore, sometimes i wonder why im even still alive i dont feel like i have a purpose anymore....................................