I'm feeling better. Though I lied to myself and others that I would talk things over with Zack ( Read more... )

So, im pretty much over the fact that me and Max aren't dating anymore. I'm on to better things. I hardly even noticed how im not feeling all sad about it and everything. But then there are the chances i've had that I somewhat regret not going for ( Read more... )

Today it has been a month since I broke up with Max. He was one of the main things that was on my mind today. Especially in English 2. We had to write a Journal on how we would explain the perfect boyfriend. Max was a lot of the things I found attractive in a guy and the little things I didn't like before grew on me and molded around my image of ( Read more... )

I just realized that I pretty much absolutely love LJ cuts. They're so .. Mysterious! You never know WHAT you'll find under them!
You get a subtle clue from the poster. But you're STILL SURPRISED!  8D

I just told Andrew to get me a McFluffy. Haha! And he just told me that it sounds like somthing dirty.
We've been calling eachother nasty names lately ( Read more... )

So. I'm doing pretty damn good now. I guess it didn't take as long as I thought it would to get over it.
Yeah, I get sad sometimes still, but its definitely not as bad as it was before.

A lot that helped me was talking to my friend Roland. He told me a lot that I needed to know. Like that Max did like me.  At the time my friend Landon liked me too ( Read more... )

SIgh...
So. I finally did it today. I broke up with him.Around 4:00.  It broke my heart but I had to do it. He wasn't happy and he didnt care for me probably half as much as I cared for him. I didn't cry on the phone or anything but I couldn't find it in me to talk to him for longer than a few minutes. I called him from my phone like maybe 5 minutes ( Read more... )

So i've been talking to Max's friend Haven on MSN. This and talking to Sky has made me fee a lot better. I'm not crying at the moment.

Hilary says (11:15 PM):
Hi Haven
the bean says (11:15 PM):
hello there
Hilary says (11:16 PM):
how're you?
the bean says (11:21 PM):
im doing preety good
the bean says (11:21 PM):
how about u?
Hilary says (11:21 PM):
im ( Read more... )

I just found out by looking through his messages again what's wrong.

Azea:
How're you and Hilary doing?
Max:
Anwyas, yeah im slowly breaking up with herA(in my mnd were broken up, but see im doing it slowly so as not to devastate her..., dont rell her this please, tahts would really ruin my plan)
Azea:
 ohhh ok.
Oh noooo of corse I woundn't tell her lol ( Read more... )

This is a list of what I have to do on a count of Max not talking to me and not seeming to want to talk to me. (Yes, I really do need to write all of this down to remember it).
Rules:

1. No calling him
2. Let him call me
3. Keep the call short and sweet, nice, flirtatious and casual. Don't let him know i'm angry.
   
4. No Myspace messages unless he ( Read more... )

I kinda feel like crap right now. I haven't talked to Max since Saturday morning. I think he's on the plane right now because his phone is off or something. Whatever ( Read more... )