boo hoo cry me a river

[oflifeandpoetry]

This semester is over and i have accomplished nothing. i honestly don't even know where this semester went. the part that disgusts me the most is that i don't know where it went because i can't remember most of it. everything is foggy and i only know that certain things happened because i have pictures and video clips to prove it. i hate this

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[anonymous]

As someone who went through all of this, including the hair pulling (I would physically pull out my hair), the late night attacks of panic, the feeling of self-disgust and hatred to the point where I wanted to cut myself and starve myself into nothing, I say it isn't worth it. Why beat your self up so badly over something like this? Please don't do it. It really isn't worth it, and don't let nasty comments from self-righteous people on LJ (I followed your comment from english_majors) make you feel that it is. It seems that some of your problems with schoolwork may be influenced by outside factors (family, relationships). In that case, I would suggest that you see a counselor at school- it really helps just to have someone on your side to talk with. And the adderall too- it isn't worth it unless you have ADHD or something. Why don't you think about taking some time off? Have you tried studying abroad? Sometimes distance can make you gain perspective and break out of bad patterns.

I really really encourage you to see someone to get back on track. I look back on the semesters where I was so down on myself that I was ready to do something drastic, and it all seems like wasted time and energy now.

I hope things get better. (btw, I'm applying to grad school now albeit in a different field, so it's not the end of the world, although it probably seems like it now)