welcome to first grade....
i just wish people didnt fuckin' care. ha, i found out y alex asked me n diego how long we've been goin out...some chick that rode the bus w/ us my freshman yr was askin. sayin' shit bout how mean he was n shit. WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS REMIND ME MY BOYFRIEND IS AN ASSHOLE????? do they think i dont' know how evil he used to be to me? b/c you know what...I DONT GIVE A FUCK! two years ago was TWO YEARS AGO. today is today. and today he loves me, and he wants me, and i love him, and i need him. and if people know us then why dont they come up to us and ask us??? wtf? that pisses me off too. like, do you think i'm gonna be mad if your like OMG YOU'RE GOING OUT W/ DIEGO???? b/c guess what!? EVERYBODY says that, and it's always, "uh...yeah." so get over it. i'm sorry but i've been w/ him for over 3 months, i guess i just thought people would be a lil more used to it...ya know? but i guess not.
and another thing. this is directed at a select few people and i'm pretty sure they know who they are:
i do not care if people look at my lj layout and think i'm drinking. b/c i'm not. i will state that right now, I DO NOT DRINK ALCOHOL. I DO NOT SMOKE ANYTHING. so if you see a bacardi layout, it's b/c i liked the pictures and the idea of a bacardi layout. some people may not approve, but my mom thought it was cool, and i spent forever finding just the right images and resizing 'em n uploading 'em n all that other shit. so i'm not gonna change this until I'M ready. also, the stuff in my lj is here for me. yeah, i know i make it all public and it's on the internet so anyone can read it, and that's great. b/c i dont think it's always the smartest thing to keep every lil thing to yourself. that's how all your emotions build up n then you just explode. and that shit sux. so i make a public journal. this is me. yeah, maybe i dont act like this around people. you dont see the more secret sides of me that i post on here, but that's b/c that stuff is personal. but i put it up here b/c i'm ONLINE. the internet is not a reality, it's a place where you can take off every mask and know one will know. people dont read this and then forever look at me as a different person, b/c this isn't the me they see every day. this is the me that i am when i'm alone. i dont care if the WHOLE WORLD reads my lj, really i dont. but DO NOT critize me for what i'm saying. go ahead, comment...joke, poke fun, or just make me feel better. w/e i need that day. but NEVER tell me that i shouldn't post stuff in MY lj. this is MINE and it will ALWAYS be mine. so what comes from my head n my heart go straight to the keyboard. if you dont approve then you have 2 options: 1. stop reading this or 2. just let it go and realize that just b/c i think about certain things and talk about them on here doesnt mean that it's the reality i'm living in.
i dont know how much sense that made, but i think you'll get the gist of it.
other then that, today was a good day. YAY! i cleaned my room, which is nice. n then diego went 2 open house n dinner w/ my family. the stupid open house thing @ hawk ridge took FOREVER so we went 2 dinner late, so he didnt get to come here. but o well. i dont mind too much, cuz @ least i got to be w/ him. and that's the best part! i'm hoping that somehow i can get out of work really early on sunday so i can go over there, but i dunno. i'm gonna try b/c i'm sure SOMEONE will cover my shift for me....PLEASE? plus they have like 3 nonvolumes, so if it's like a reg sunday, when we only have volumes n one non, then i should be off kinda early *crosses fingers* and then maybe i'll still be able to go 2 diegos. cuz i hate not seein' him all weekend. it SUCKS big time!
<33Jacki
and another thing. this is directed at a select few people and i'm pretty sure they know who they are:
i do not care if people look at my lj layout and think i'm drinking. b/c i'm not. i will state that right now, I DO NOT DRINK ALCOHOL. I DO NOT SMOKE ANYTHING. so if you see a bacardi layout, it's b/c i liked the pictures and the idea of a bacardi layout. some people may not approve, but my mom thought it was cool, and i spent forever finding just the right images and resizing 'em n uploading 'em n all that other shit. so i'm not gonna change this until I'M ready. also, the stuff in my lj is here for me. yeah, i know i make it all public and it's on the internet so anyone can read it, and that's great. b/c i dont think it's always the smartest thing to keep every lil thing to yourself. that's how all your emotions build up n then you just explode. and that shit sux. so i make a public journal. this is me. yeah, maybe i dont act like this around people. you dont see the more secret sides of me that i post on here, but that's b/c that stuff is personal. but i put it up here b/c i'm ONLINE. the internet is not a reality, it's a place where you can take off every mask and know one will know. people dont read this and then forever look at me as a different person, b/c this isn't the me they see every day. this is the me that i am when i'm alone. i dont care if the WHOLE WORLD reads my lj, really i dont. but DO NOT critize me for what i'm saying. go ahead, comment...joke, poke fun, or just make me feel better. w/e i need that day. but NEVER tell me that i shouldn't post stuff in MY lj. this is MINE and it will ALWAYS be mine. so what comes from my head n my heart go straight to the keyboard. if you dont approve then you have 2 options: 1. stop reading this or 2. just let it go and realize that just b/c i think about certain things and talk about them on here doesnt mean that it's the reality i'm living in.
i dont know how much sense that made, but i think you'll get the gist of it.
other then that, today was a good day. YAY! i cleaned my room, which is nice. n then diego went 2 open house n dinner w/ my family. the stupid open house thing @ hawk ridge took FOREVER so we went 2 dinner late, so he didnt get to come here. but o well. i dont mind too much, cuz @ least i got to be w/ him. and that's the best part! i'm hoping that somehow i can get out of work really early on sunday so i can go over there, but i dunno. i'm gonna try b/c i'm sure SOMEONE will cover my shift for me....PLEASE? plus they have like 3 nonvolumes, so if it's like a reg sunday, when we only have volumes n one non, then i should be off kinda early *crosses fingers* and then maybe i'll still be able to go 2 diegos. cuz i hate not seein' him all weekend. it SUCKS big time!
<33Jacki