for you.......
ok stefani, this whole thing is for you. maybe you don't understand why i'm not going to give you advice or disscuss this issue with you and i'm tired of it. i'm not going to allow comments on this entry, and dont go on a different one and put comments....i dont care what you think, or how pissed off this makes you b/c this is MY lj and it's MY opinion and i need you to know it.
let me state up front that i love you and care about you (and not just for your car!)!! but sometimes there's just an issue.
At work I feel like your VERY condesending. I know it's mean but it's true. I feel like you think you're about ten times better then me b/c you've worked more hours or something. you get this attitude that makes me feel like you're putting me down. i'm sure you don't mean it or anything so don't get all defensive with me. don't start IMing me w/ this whole issue. i just hate it. i hate when i'm on bored and you tell me where i should sit people, like the other day you kept saying "travis" omg, i was about to freakin' slap you.
theres other stuff that bugs me too. like this whole issue with shila. look, i love that you really like kyle. but shila liked him first. i'm about to tell you something that's gonna seem like advice, but you choose whether or not to take it, b/c i wasn't very willing to accept yours about diego. about a year and a half ago i met a nieghbor of my friend's. everything was just grand b/c you know we liked each other and he asked me out...blah blah blah. but this friend had a crush on him too, and i asked her and everything and she was like yeah sure w/e. when he n i broke up (which didnt bother me much cuz he wasn't really worth it) things weren't the same b/w me and that friend. we were like BEST FRIENDS, but then we.....weren't. the guy ended up being a jerk anyway. kyle reminds me of him. guys dont change. kyle has cheated....more then once. i KNOW guys dont change...from experience. i know you think i'm just being bitchy or something but for once i'm being totally and completely honest with you. i think you made the wrong choice. b/c you chose a guy over your friend. now i'll be honest, if i was FORCED to choose, i'd choose the person that wasnt MAKING me choose.....guy or girl it wouldnt matter. but no one MADE you choose, in this b/c shila let it go. she was definitely the bigger person, b/c she'd rather see you and kyle happy, then herself. and you know what, i commend her for that. it took a lot for her to give up this guy she LOVES to one of her friends. it's not easy to do that, and shila will never feel the same for either one of you. and her friend is only trying to protect her. shila's past hasn't been all that great and her friends know that and want to keep her safe.
if your going to insult the decision i made to go out with diego and shit, that's fine by me b/c i don't care anymore. you're not the only one that thinks i'm insane but you know what, i love him. i love him more than i could ever explain. maybe you'll feel this way about kyle and just forget everything i said. fine, i'm not asking you to follow advice, i dont want you to break up with him, i just want a chance for you to LISTEN, that's all......LISTEN. no remarks, replies, responses.....none. i don't want 'em. i dont care if you understand everything i've said or not. b/c i doubt you do. i'm not a very clear person. so yeah.... hehe.
i can't explain everything that's frustrating me about you right now, b/c it's just little things that i let build up. i get irritated by stupid stuff b/c it's constant and you don't realize it. and now, i just hope you do.
but remember, i still care about you.......you can be a good friend and a great person
let me state up front that i love you and care about you (and not just for your car!)!! but sometimes there's just an issue.
At work I feel like your VERY condesending. I know it's mean but it's true. I feel like you think you're about ten times better then me b/c you've worked more hours or something. you get this attitude that makes me feel like you're putting me down. i'm sure you don't mean it or anything so don't get all defensive with me. don't start IMing me w/ this whole issue. i just hate it. i hate when i'm on bored and you tell me where i should sit people, like the other day you kept saying "travis" omg, i was about to freakin' slap you.
theres other stuff that bugs me too. like this whole issue with shila. look, i love that you really like kyle. but shila liked him first. i'm about to tell you something that's gonna seem like advice, but you choose whether or not to take it, b/c i wasn't very willing to accept yours about diego. about a year and a half ago i met a nieghbor of my friend's. everything was just grand b/c you know we liked each other and he asked me out...blah blah blah. but this friend had a crush on him too, and i asked her and everything and she was like yeah sure w/e. when he n i broke up (which didnt bother me much cuz he wasn't really worth it) things weren't the same b/w me and that friend. we were like BEST FRIENDS, but then we.....weren't. the guy ended up being a jerk anyway. kyle reminds me of him. guys dont change. kyle has cheated....more then once. i KNOW guys dont change...from experience. i know you think i'm just being bitchy or something but for once i'm being totally and completely honest with you. i think you made the wrong choice. b/c you chose a guy over your friend. now i'll be honest, if i was FORCED to choose, i'd choose the person that wasnt MAKING me choose.....guy or girl it wouldnt matter. but no one MADE you choose, in this b/c shila let it go. she was definitely the bigger person, b/c she'd rather see you and kyle happy, then herself. and you know what, i commend her for that. it took a lot for her to give up this guy she LOVES to one of her friends. it's not easy to do that, and shila will never feel the same for either one of you. and her friend is only trying to protect her. shila's past hasn't been all that great and her friends know that and want to keep her safe.
if your going to insult the decision i made to go out with diego and shit, that's fine by me b/c i don't care anymore. you're not the only one that thinks i'm insane but you know what, i love him. i love him more than i could ever explain. maybe you'll feel this way about kyle and just forget everything i said. fine, i'm not asking you to follow advice, i dont want you to break up with him, i just want a chance for you to LISTEN, that's all......LISTEN. no remarks, replies, responses.....none. i don't want 'em. i dont care if you understand everything i've said or not. b/c i doubt you do. i'm not a very clear person. so yeah.... hehe.
i can't explain everything that's frustrating me about you right now, b/c it's just little things that i let build up. i get irritated by stupid stuff b/c it's constant and you don't realize it. and now, i just hope you do.
but remember, i still care about you.......you can be a good friend and a great person