The not so wonderful Christmas*
wow okay very eventful day* okay well to start off divorce is deff not going well for me right now. I'm having a way harder time than before ecpecailly since its Chrismas time* Just seeing them together not talking silently hating each other in the same room makes me cridge every time I think about it. a once loving family now a deep nothingness it seems like* I had to get out of that room and just cry and cry, what is happening and why to me.....??? it was so not right anyone in room could have been able to tell, it was just almost unbarable and to think he accctlly came home and was nice to me for a bit, thinking okay he might change for a few nights u know sicne its Chritmas and all but that was not so...... he was just the same at my house opening gifts..... not speakign not caring........ its a wonder im not like severly depressed or have some sort of phycological damage, ne who the moral of the story is Chritmas was not good this year with him im starting to think it might have been better for him just to stay at home ,rumnied me whole night* my mom ont he other hand you could tell was also having trouble donnie too.... how sad is that? but mom always makes chritmas good* and she is my hero my best friend (its sounds cheezy, but how is it ever so true?) Got a lot of cool stuff got a couple new pairs of jeans, a digital camara, some shoes lol potato shoes), sum shirts, and jewerly, cd (but wronge one so we r taking it back an getting the right one), like a dozen sheet sets, a coach lether wallet its really cute* Chritmas was great at my aunts house* deff lots of food and yummy things ate a ton* prob gained a couple of pounds, missing troy alot, cannot wait to see him maybe he can put me in a better mood*, I look so happy and full of life evryday on the outside but inside im so with it , empty, depressed, and sad,* well my night has not been great so im off to bed*
2 days till cananda trip*
Merry Christmas everyone*