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OK so who wants to know what it's like to be me?
Every day I wonder who my friends are gonna be. I never know who I'll be able to talk to, hang out with, or even see for a hot second on campus. I live with a constant fear that every relationship I have with everyone I know is somehow only a temporary state, and the only thing that keeps it in tact is MY ability to do just that...keep it in tact. I know, nowhere is there anyone who wakes up thinking about me, or goes to sleep wondering what I was up to that night. I feel completely forgetable all the time...like, as soon as I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind. Every day I think about my relationships with people, and how I impact their lives, if at all. I wonder if there's any reason I do the things I do with other people, only to be forgotten the next hour, or the next day or week.
Is it to much to ask to be remembered, aknowledged, recognized?
Of course, I'd like it if the person I wake up thinking about, is a person who wakes up thinking about me. But aye there's the rub. Such a combination has been told to me by many that it doesn't exist.
Every day I wonder who my friends are gonna be. I never know who I'll be able to talk to, hang out with, or even see for a hot second on campus. I live with a constant fear that every relationship I have with everyone I know is somehow only a temporary state, and the only thing that keeps it in tact is MY ability to do just that...keep it in tact. I know, nowhere is there anyone who wakes up thinking about me, or goes to sleep wondering what I was up to that night. I feel completely forgetable all the time...like, as soon as I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind. Every day I think about my relationships with people, and how I impact their lives, if at all. I wonder if there's any reason I do the things I do with other people, only to be forgotten the next hour, or the next day or week.
Is it to much to ask to be remembered, aknowledged, recognized?
Of course, I'd like it if the person I wake up thinking about, is a person who wakes up thinking about me. But aye there's the rub. Such a combination has been told to me by many that it doesn't exist.