Nov 10, 2004 21:00
there are some wonderful people i know who have been "handled", you could say, in such a way to where they now feel misused, unwanted, and unloved...and it shouldn't be that way. NOBODY should ever feel not good enough. Nobody should ever feel unwanted. and if i had it my way, i'd have it so nobody would have to face rejection. i think it's one of the worst feelings and the biggest fears present in our lives.
I have also come to find that people don't even enjoy their endeavors/relationships half the time they're involved in them. instead of complicating the relationship and time spent together over small, insignificant things...be thankful for the bond you share. things change as well as people. so what you have now might not be around forever. might as well grasp each chance you get to tell them how special they are to you, or how you like it when they look at you directly from the side, or how you like it when they don't put gel in their hair, or how you like the way they circle their thumbs on your skin as they hold your hand.
so many people are so analytical of their significant other, leaving them no room to completely fall into something close to love...if not love itself...
i don't know i mean, instead of being mad that he missed your solo as he hurriedly arrives late to your choir concert, be glad that he made efforts to rush straight from work to be there, just for you...
instead of getting angry that she didn't come to your last football game, be glad that she's come to 6 games out of 7 so far this season, even last week's game when it was storming and she sat in the stands shivering inside her raincoat, just for you...
and instead of being mad that he's hanging out with his friends tonight instead of with you, be happy for him that he has close friends, and be thankful that you two spent time together last night anyways...
i definitely regret stressing over the little things that didn't even matter. i hate it when people say they have no regrets...psh, i will be one to say i definitely do. yes, they were all learning experiences...but i'd have done a lot of things different. God gives us room to make these mistakes and in these we are allowed to grow. but still...there are a few things i wish i could change. i guess thats where i'm at a loss. i'm trying to change my past, figure out my future...why do i let my overthinking ruin the things that make me the happiest? i realize now i need to live in the present.