i'm starting to see things more clearly as days go by. finally. it's weird how things change when you start looking at a person in a different light. i now look at mike like hey this is one of my best friends, rather than i hope he and i can be something more than friends. of course the idea is still in the back of my mind. part of me would ( Read more... )

i really enjoyed today. i got to spend it with jesse and five phone calls from mike. ha, the new record. but i think jesse put a stop to all that... jesse and i are baking queens and i'm going to support her through culinary school. ha and lane. great lane and his hildago and the old man swimming the mississippi. oh man.

ok, this is cute; mike asked me to go christmas shopping with him.

uh today was going alright until steve said i like mike. he then practically said it in front of mike. mike got uncomfortable and left. uh.

jesse, i need news!

fall semester is over ( Read more... )

i think it's kind of sad that when i'm supposed to spend time with my "best friend" i ask other people to come hang out because i know i'll feel too uncomfortable. i think it's sad our relationship has come to that ( Read more... )

he asked for my number today, so we can play trivial pursuit. but stupid me forgot to give it to him before i left. sigh.

i'm so sad chris is gone. he and i should have been forever. stupid girlfriends. i will forever remember the picture he drew of us doing the swing in water with my hook hands and sun smiling on us but the moon frowning. and him telling me he liked talking to me because he felt he could talk to me and be weird with me and not feel uncomfortable ( Read more... )

hello my secret life ( Read more... )

i am a silly girl. i'm very confused with everything that is going on. i think i just make it more difficult for my self than it actually is ( Read more... )