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I've been feeling despondent today. I didn't get a second interview for a job I was really pining for. Before today's phone call, I mentally prepared myself not to expect too much. It's a terrible economic climate we're living in and me being a non-business/non-engineering major hardly makes me a hot commodity--even in good times. But when the person on the other end said it didn't seem like I was a fit for the position, my heart dropped. I honestly thought I was well-suited for the job and the organization's values really aligned with my own. It was everything I was asking for: a position that would've challenged me while nurturing the visions I already have in an environment that would've engaged me on a professional and personal level. I hesitate to to claim anything in this world as being flaw-free, but to me, for me, that job would've been perfect. To them, for them, I was not. I guess I lacked the skill set they were looking for, but I really felt like I could grow into the job description naturally. It especially pains me though, because I can't help but think: was I really lacking what they needed, or did I just not sell myself properly?
The man on the other end was kind enough to say that he'd forward my resume to a different department within the organization, but I hardly think anything will come of that. The position might already be filled.
Aside from really wanting to work there and not getting it, I guess it hurts because once again I'm back to square one. Admittedly I haven't been job hunting as adamantly as others--it's not like I'm writing cover letters and tweaking my resume everyday--but I feel more incompetent and lost than ever. I don't know where where to look and I don't know what I can do. What skills do I have? What am I but mediocrity and a waste or breathing space?
The man on the other end was kind enough to say that he'd forward my resume to a different department within the organization, but I hardly think anything will come of that. The position might already be filled.
Aside from really wanting to work there and not getting it, I guess it hurts because once again I'm back to square one. Admittedly I haven't been job hunting as adamantly as others--it's not like I'm writing cover letters and tweaking my resume everyday--but I feel more incompetent and lost than ever. I don't know where where to look and I don't know what I can do. What skills do I have? What am I but mediocrity and a waste or breathing space?