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"It's like death. Illness, disease, hell. I literally hurt inside and out, physically and emotionally. A black hole surrounds my "being" and sucks life out of me. Doesn't matter anyway, I don't need it.
A huge black cloud hovers over me wherever I go, pouring down rain and striking lightning. I'll lay on the ground, in the fetal posistion, whispering to no one. Alone, helpless, hopeless. "Rapid Hope Loss," as they say. Every thought leads me down to a dark prison of hate and jealousy, ending in painful heart beats. Tears fall down my cold cheeks and my throat starts to swell. Breathing becomes difficult, yet unimportant. My eyes twitch, and all color is drained. Biting my lips, I try to calm down. Just breathe. More thoughts. Overwhelming, overpowering. My body is taken over as I scream for help. Nothing happens except for the feeling of being alone deepens. Pain. Death."
-- me.
And this is what happens, boys and girls.
A huge black cloud hovers over me wherever I go, pouring down rain and striking lightning. I'll lay on the ground, in the fetal posistion, whispering to no one. Alone, helpless, hopeless. "Rapid Hope Loss," as they say. Every thought leads me down to a dark prison of hate and jealousy, ending in painful heart beats. Tears fall down my cold cheeks and my throat starts to swell. Breathing becomes difficult, yet unimportant. My eyes twitch, and all color is drained. Biting my lips, I try to calm down. Just breathe. More thoughts. Overwhelming, overpowering. My body is taken over as I scream for help. Nothing happens except for the feeling of being alone deepens. Pain. Death."
-- me.
And this is what happens, boys and girls.