What is my passion?
I had a wonderful time Saturday night! Surrounded by my favorite people, minus a few. I cannot wait to see the pictures Emily took, half the time I didn't even realize she was taking pictures. The dancing, lap dances by Ryan, all the catch up on each others lives convos., and lots of laughter. I really did miss people, everyone seemed like they had a great time. We finished off all the alcohol, bottle of Smirnoff vodka, Appleton Rum, and Southern Comfort. Everyone left at 3 and I fell right asleep. I woke up the next morning in dire thirst. I cleaned for two hours straight. I got rid of all the evidence of a party, I told Lisa I had a future job in covering up.
I felt horrible yesterday. Despite that, I went to Mass and brought Emily with me. Then I went to see A Series of Unfortunate Events with Hannah, Rachel, Emily and Jeffrey. Today I worked out at Gold's Gym, went to Wal Mart with Leigh, and right now I am incredibly bored. What could I be doing instead? Many, many things I suppose, Dothan stinks.
What is my passion? I don't exactly know. I like doing a lot of things. I enjoy running, riding horses, being a good friend, traveling, swimming, making jewlery, and I dunno more I'm sure. I really, really want to study abroad. I want to go somewhere new and go on adventures. I still don't know what I want for a career yet, hopefully I'll know soon. I wish I was like this is what I want to be, it is the job I've always wanted and I'll love it. But how many people does that really happen to anyways? Most people are stuck in jobs they hate and just trying to live comfortably. Why do I feel like I need a boyfriend to make me complete? I hear that if you feel that way it is because you aren't happy with yourself. I am happy with myself though, I just like having someone there and I miss it and being home and him being there drives me nuts. Ugh, will we ever be just friends? His presence still gives me butterflies. I don't want f***ing butterflies, at least not from him. I want everything to feel natural, normal and laid back. Like it was before when we were just friends, there were certain times where there were glimpses of maybe something more but they always got pushed aside. Why can't those feelings get pushed aside again? I feel like I cannot shut him out of my life completely, that would be too hard. My Mom says I will feel differently when I have a new guy in my life, I hope she is right. I am so sick of getting flustered by him, I want us to be friends and not have this crap in the way. I'll be back at school in a couple of weeks and he will be far away and it will be easier.
Tomorrow AP party! Yay, food and friends, what a great combination. Rachel M. I can't wait to see you!
I felt horrible yesterday. Despite that, I went to Mass and brought Emily with me. Then I went to see A Series of Unfortunate Events with Hannah, Rachel, Emily and Jeffrey. Today I worked out at Gold's Gym, went to Wal Mart with Leigh, and right now I am incredibly bored. What could I be doing instead? Many, many things I suppose, Dothan stinks.
What is my passion? I don't exactly know. I like doing a lot of things. I enjoy running, riding horses, being a good friend, traveling, swimming, making jewlery, and I dunno more I'm sure. I really, really want to study abroad. I want to go somewhere new and go on adventures. I still don't know what I want for a career yet, hopefully I'll know soon. I wish I was like this is what I want to be, it is the job I've always wanted and I'll love it. But how many people does that really happen to anyways? Most people are stuck in jobs they hate and just trying to live comfortably. Why do I feel like I need a boyfriend to make me complete? I hear that if you feel that way it is because you aren't happy with yourself. I am happy with myself though, I just like having someone there and I miss it and being home and him being there drives me nuts. Ugh, will we ever be just friends? His presence still gives me butterflies. I don't want f***ing butterflies, at least not from him. I want everything to feel natural, normal and laid back. Like it was before when we were just friends, there were certain times where there were glimpses of maybe something more but they always got pushed aside. Why can't those feelings get pushed aside again? I feel like I cannot shut him out of my life completely, that would be too hard. My Mom says I will feel differently when I have a new guy in my life, I hope she is right. I am so sick of getting flustered by him, I want us to be friends and not have this crap in the way. I'll be back at school in a couple of weeks and he will be far away and it will be easier.
Tomorrow AP party! Yay, food and friends, what a great combination. Rachel M. I can't wait to see you!