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I love how in the 48 hours that I've been off, I've only accomplished washing my Outback laundry and going to the bank. My apartment is still a mess, the vaccuuming hasn't been done, and my bathroom really needs a good scrubbing. The plus side-well I got a huge paycheck this week thanks to a 4 hour meeting and my vacation pay. Too bad the whole amount is going to be spent in 24 hours. *sigh* yes I love living paycheck to paycheck. I guess it could be worse.
Nothing much going on in the land of Stephanie.
Vday has come and gone. Another disappointing holiday as far as I am concerned. Not only spending it alone, but also relazing how bad couples tip at a restaurant. Yeah, do us all a favor and just stay home. We don't need that money that bad, oh no.
Next holiday....Fat Tuesday and then St. Pat's Day. If it were 5-6 years ago, I know what I would be doing. This year, eh who cares. I'm getting too old to be sick for an entire day. Especially if I could make even some money on that day instead.
Beyond that, I'm thankful for what I did have these past two days...plenty of sunshine. God, can Spring and Summer get here already? I'm itching to get out and take some pictures, but can't since it's been so cold my fingers would fall off. Fun part...my apartment faces south. The sun has melted all the snow in my driveway and on the front sidewalk. My neighbor across the street was outside in the 20 degree sun today with a snowblower blowing his sidewalk and driveway. Still think he wasted all that gas, and could have shoveled it faster. It was only 2 inches. Being in the shade sucks for that side of the street.
Some changes are blowing in at the work place. The first phase started this week with the new menu. More changes are on the way. And that's all I'm saying about that. It's going to be an interesting place to work in the next year. Just mark my words.
Health wise I'm doing good. I fought off the nasty flu and ended up not getting sick. Multi vitamins, oj, and ricola are my best friends. Just a sore throat for one day. Lucky me. It means I haven't gotten sick in over a year, maybe more. Soon as spring comes I can work more on the being more healthy and watching the weight. I've managed to keep the pounds off that I worked so hard on for going on the cruise. Sadly, I was around 170 range there for a time last spring. Got down to around 150 for the cruise. I've stayed pretty steady between 150-55 depending on the time of the month. I'd like to get down to 135-40 again, which is what I was about 4 years ago. Exercise and walking down at the peninsula will help immensely.
Emotionally, I'm still broken. Yeah, picture Stitch here. Yep, broken. Definitely broken. But I am working on myself a bit at a time. My heart will probably never heal properly. I wouldn't expect it to. One thing I have noticed, now that I'm not with anyone, my life has slowed down. I'm not sure how that's possible, but I don't find myself thinking about the future every minute of my day. I'm trying to live for the moment, or at least as best as I can in the present. The friends that all showed up to celebrate my birthday was an eye-opener and proof that people do care about me. Sometimes, I don't feel like that. But that group, especially Monday night was the most eccletic group of friends that I've ever seen before. They aren't the type of people that normally party or even hang out with each other. But knowing that I was an instrument in bringing them together to celebrate a common friend, it made me feel on top of the world. So, with that being said, I think I'm healing...at least a slow bit at a time.
Nothing much going on in the land of Stephanie.
Vday has come and gone. Another disappointing holiday as far as I am concerned. Not only spending it alone, but also relazing how bad couples tip at a restaurant. Yeah, do us all a favor and just stay home. We don't need that money that bad, oh no.
Next holiday....Fat Tuesday and then St. Pat's Day. If it were 5-6 years ago, I know what I would be doing. This year, eh who cares. I'm getting too old to be sick for an entire day. Especially if I could make even some money on that day instead.
Beyond that, I'm thankful for what I did have these past two days...plenty of sunshine. God, can Spring and Summer get here already? I'm itching to get out and take some pictures, but can't since it's been so cold my fingers would fall off. Fun part...my apartment faces south. The sun has melted all the snow in my driveway and on the front sidewalk. My neighbor across the street was outside in the 20 degree sun today with a snowblower blowing his sidewalk and driveway. Still think he wasted all that gas, and could have shoveled it faster. It was only 2 inches. Being in the shade sucks for that side of the street.
Some changes are blowing in at the work place. The first phase started this week with the new menu. More changes are on the way. And that's all I'm saying about that. It's going to be an interesting place to work in the next year. Just mark my words.
Health wise I'm doing good. I fought off the nasty flu and ended up not getting sick. Multi vitamins, oj, and ricola are my best friends. Just a sore throat for one day. Lucky me. It means I haven't gotten sick in over a year, maybe more. Soon as spring comes I can work more on the being more healthy and watching the weight. I've managed to keep the pounds off that I worked so hard on for going on the cruise. Sadly, I was around 170 range there for a time last spring. Got down to around 150 for the cruise. I've stayed pretty steady between 150-55 depending on the time of the month. I'd like to get down to 135-40 again, which is what I was about 4 years ago. Exercise and walking down at the peninsula will help immensely.
Emotionally, I'm still broken. Yeah, picture Stitch here. Yep, broken. Definitely broken. But I am working on myself a bit at a time. My heart will probably never heal properly. I wouldn't expect it to. One thing I have noticed, now that I'm not with anyone, my life has slowed down. I'm not sure how that's possible, but I don't find myself thinking about the future every minute of my day. I'm trying to live for the moment, or at least as best as I can in the present. The friends that all showed up to celebrate my birthday was an eye-opener and proof that people do care about me. Sometimes, I don't feel like that. But that group, especially Monday night was the most eccletic group of friends that I've ever seen before. They aren't the type of people that normally party or even hang out with each other. But knowing that I was an instrument in bringing them together to celebrate a common friend, it made me feel on top of the world. So, with that being said, I think I'm healing...at least a slow bit at a time.