ahh . . . mother guilt
oh sleep, how i miss you!
i remember this lack of sleep from when lucien was born, but at least i could nap then. i feel so bad that i don't have the energy for lucien during the day. it's so hard, after he had me to himself for three years. i just can't help feeling guilty for the things i can't do with him right now. then i feel guilty for not responding quickly enough to mireille when i am helping lucien with something. sigh. guilt, guilt, guilt. mama-friends of two: does it stop? do you eventually realize that you are doing the best you can for both? i know it will get better when we start getting more sleep. my impatience with lucien is mostly about my exhaustion. and it has been worse the last few days because mireille has been super fussy and not sleeping well during the day. but that's another post . . .
right now i need to take the girl back to bed.
i remember this lack of sleep from when lucien was born, but at least i could nap then. i feel so bad that i don't have the energy for lucien during the day. it's so hard, after he had me to himself for three years. i just can't help feeling guilty for the things i can't do with him right now. then i feel guilty for not responding quickly enough to mireille when i am helping lucien with something. sigh. guilt, guilt, guilt. mama-friends of two: does it stop? do you eventually realize that you are doing the best you can for both? i know it will get better when we start getting more sleep. my impatience with lucien is mostly about my exhaustion. and it has been worse the last few days because mireille has been super fussy and not sleeping well during the day. but that's another post . . .
right now i need to take the girl back to bed.