Boring?
Anybody reading this journal would think that my life consists of food...eating or not...and nothing else. Just to let you know, I do have a life, albeit one consumed by the thought of food. To consume or not to consume. That is my life's leading question.
My real reason for writing is simply to state...I might be back. If you know what I mean. I am back in a big way right this moment. So so sososososo sick of being 130 and climbing. I am fasting today to get my body back in gear and then I will try to eat something light tomorrow. I don't want to restrict as severely (sp?) as I have before, because I don't want my metabolism to completely die on me now that I have it back up to an acceptable position, but I don't want to go over 1100. I KNOW that sounds like a lot, but I'm trying to stay in a safe zone. We'll see how it goes.
Ever since I came to the conclusion that I am more of a binge or compulsive overeater who was posing as an anorexic, it has been easier for me to forgive myself for my slip-ups. Unfortunately it has led me to the belief that overeating was excusable. I need to kick that habit right now. I would love to participate in the "Longevity Diet" which is optimum nutrition with the minimum amount of calories neccessary for survival, but it is suggested that you don't do it unless you are done having all the children you want because, like anorexia, it seems to shut down the systems not neccessary for individual survival, i.e. the reproductive system. And I haven't even started yet, so there you have it.
I have not been a very supportive part of FineFrailty, I've been neglecting my journal... I would like to get back in the groove of things, especially now since the semester has come to an end and I have about three weeks of pure vegetation. Ha ha. I mean, I still have to work and all, but you know.
Well, peace in the middle east. Talk soon.
My real reason for writing is simply to state...I might be back. If you know what I mean. I am back in a big way right this moment. So so sososososo sick of being 130 and climbing. I am fasting today to get my body back in gear and then I will try to eat something light tomorrow. I don't want to restrict as severely (sp?) as I have before, because I don't want my metabolism to completely die on me now that I have it back up to an acceptable position, but I don't want to go over 1100. I KNOW that sounds like a lot, but I'm trying to stay in a safe zone. We'll see how it goes.
Ever since I came to the conclusion that I am more of a binge or compulsive overeater who was posing as an anorexic, it has been easier for me to forgive myself for my slip-ups. Unfortunately it has led me to the belief that overeating was excusable. I need to kick that habit right now. I would love to participate in the "Longevity Diet" which is optimum nutrition with the minimum amount of calories neccessary for survival, but it is suggested that you don't do it unless you are done having all the children you want because, like anorexia, it seems to shut down the systems not neccessary for individual survival, i.e. the reproductive system. And I haven't even started yet, so there you have it.
I have not been a very supportive part of FineFrailty, I've been neglecting my journal... I would like to get back in the groove of things, especially now since the semester has come to an end and I have about three weeks of pure vegetation. Ha ha. I mean, I still have to work and all, but you know.
Well, peace in the middle east. Talk soon.